So I skipped out on early betas. My pee sticks were super dark anyway, so I didn't think they'd tell me anything (and my fear is of a second blighted ovum, which starts out with normal betas, so what's the point?).
I had the super-queasies for about a week, from around 13dpo until this past Monday. Then my symptoms just disappeared on Tuesday, and on Wednesday night I had a hint of spotting (pinkish wipe on the tp, then a bit of brown mucus Thursday morning - sorry for the tmi!). I was pretty convinced the pregnancy was over. I told my husband and my sister it was over. I went to my ob appt on Thursday morning and told him I had a positive hpt, but that I was pretty sure it was all over. This was at 5 weeks exactly.
He took blood for a beta, and gave me a quick u/s to confirm whatever I had wasn't ectopic. He's a one-doc office, so while his u/s machine is new, I don't think it's likely to be as sensitive as one an RE would have. He did the u/s himself, though he usually has a sonographer do them so he's not really the expert u/s tech. He was able to confirm that my tube (I only have the one) looked clear, and he pointed to what he believed to be the beginning of the pregnancy in the uterus. He pointed to two dark spots and said those looked like bits of blood and were likely the source of the spotting. He said they could be just random bits of bleeding and may not be a concern, or if I really am losing the pg, then it could be the beginning of a breakdown of the endometrium.
So today I got the b/w back. My beta was over 9,500. Seriously, that is freaky high for 5w0d. And my progesterone is 18.7. So now I'm spinning again. Backtracking to when I took my pee tests, that puts my first pee test (based on doubling every two days) at around 500 and my second around 1000, which pretty much matches their extreme darkness. Maybe this pregnancy isn't ending?
And that progesterone level? The ob's office said it was normal, but I know that's the low end of normal. Should I get on progesterone support? Gah! I don't know what to think. It was almost easier when I was convinced it was over.
I go back to retest b/w on Monday. I'll get the results Tuesday, so then I'll have a better idea of what's going on.
I wish there was a magic envelope we could open that would just show us the future - "yes, this is a viable pregnancy" or "no, it's all a big mistake, you'll be back to ttc again very soon".