Hugs. I am so sorry about your Uncle. Peace to your family. I have to agree with Antonialisa. Give yourself permission to give your anxieties a chance to rest. Us IF ladies (and their men or partner) we spend so much time and worrying trying to get there that we then tend to worry about every statistic, scare, problem, oops, uh-oh that comes along with pregnancy. And it will come. And it will come when your beautiful happy healthy baby gets there too. And at each milestone or birthday after that. Try to give yourself some time to enjoy growing that baby. Make sound decisions and take care of yourself. Hugs again. I know it's not easy.