Thank you to everyoneAugust 11 2012 at 4:40 AM
|Marti (Login longing4baby)|
Response to My broken heart (m/c mentioned)
My beloved and I just wanted to thank you all for this generous outpouring of support. I begged my new OB to release me as soon as possible and was allowed to leave the hospital late Thursday night so I could grieve privately at home. In a past post I had talked about that in my darkest days I would seek comfort in the white and pink board as a lurker. I was so hungry for knowledge on what to do to have a family and your life experiences gave me the strength I needed to make it through and get pregnant.
I know that life includes loss, and that it is unfair at times but I also know that life is rich of moments of happiness. My DH and I are purposefully taking time to work together to communicate, reflect, pray and plan the future. It is not always easy and I so desperately miss my girls. I ache in ways I did not know was possible. Your words of comfort, prayer and love have helped me begin to get through this process. In essence, this board has become an affirmation in the power of womanhood. I think sometimes we forget to acknowledge all the beautiful roles we can play - mother, daughter, sister, friend. I thought I had suffered a broken heart before but I know realize that experience was necessary to make me realize I am stron enough to get through this process. I promise to be purposeful on this journey to become a mother, not allow my heart to become bitter and educate myself for whatever the future brings.
I am in awe of the possibility of the TAC and TVC and journeys of women like Amy. I thank you to everyone for pushing me to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It seems so far away right now, but I know in time it is possible to move in that direction. Right now is about getting through the little chunks of life, like living hour to hour, reminding myself to breathe, burrowing in my husband's side and allowing us to grieve as parents to angel babies. I do not feel Mireya and Mikayla physically anymore but I know their presence is around us. Again, my best wishes and deepest prayers to you all of for your succesful futures. I feel honored to be part of your life through this board and will continue to lurk around for strength and the ability to support others when I can. Love to you all for everything you have so graciously and generously given to my husband, daughters and I. You have helped add warmth and depth to the patchwork quilt of my life.
- You are a beautiful person - Rebekah on Aug 11, 12:07 PM