Katie, you poor thing! The good news is, you are totally entitled to blame the hormones (not to mention life experience!) for all freakouts. You get a total freak out of jail free card.
Do not pressure yourself to relax and enjoy, it will only give you something to feel BAD about if you can't. You WILL get there, but it is natural for it to take some time. Just try to take things one day at a time, and try very hard to get enough sleep, even if you have to go to bed silly early and nap whenever possible, instead of running errands on the weekend, or whatever!
I could not concentrate on anything for more than about 20 minutes in a row at first. I was so scared all the time. Mrs. A told me to find some good TV shows on DVD. I am a big reader so I got some nice YA mind candy stuff to distract myself with. I bought books with impunity...no pressure to borrow from the library or only pick paperbacks, lol, it was my little treat to myself! Try your best to not put any pressure on yourself about anything. This time is yours, the best you can do on days you are upset is put one foot in front of the other.
I guess what I am trying to say is to above all be kind to yourself. Tell DH to give you even more extra hugs
I was not able to begin to relax until after my first tri screen. It is different for everyone, I hope you relax early but if you don't, just keep seeking support! People do really understand here. Right now something wonderful is happening but you have also traded one kind of fear for another and it is natural to be frightened sometimes.
All you want to see at this u/s is a well placed sac. Anything else is bonus.
I hate to throw in a nay on the doppler but I decided not to do it after researching, and my OB absolutely recommended against. I am glad to hear they have worked for some here but it can be very difficult to find the hb early on - it even took my OB a few minutes at my 12wk appt! I felt that if I could not find it I would totally lose my mind and opted out.
Keep reminding yourself you have every reason to be hopeful and no data to worry about. I can't tell you how many times I repeated to myself the data from Jamie's article......all the pregnancies in that beta group led to deliveries. You have everything going for you. It's good!!