My mother says that I can't have the lifestyle and have God at the same time, because of several reasons. I admit that it irritates me that my mother would say such a thing, because even though I crave for the lifestyle, I STILL love God and have him in my heart. I believe that he does love me back, even with all the bad in me. But my mother takes this lifestyle and any other out of the norm lifestyle in comparison to Sodom and Gomorrah. My mother believes that men lusting after each other and females lusting after females are sinfully wrong. She also believes that I am sinning because the act of the lifestyle is "unclean", and she fears that Satan will get a hold of me through my "unclean" actions.
softly laughing as I shake my head..I know my mother loves me and wants to keep me away from harm. I also know that my mother is very good with words, and "driving the point home", so to speak, to get me to think and ponder cause she knows that I will do it in so many angels that I would get a heachache from it.
I honestly can't say if God and the lifestyle can go hand in hand. Maybe it is "unequally yoked". All I do know is that, good or bad, I will live the lifestyle as that is part of who I am. I will not deny myself of who I believe myself to be. If it means that I am being sinful, then I can only ask God to forgive me for it, and hope that He will understand why I live the way I do. But at the same time, though I don't preach about the Lord, I will live to the best of my ability as "one of His children", and hope that my actions will not condem me to hell.
Submission in Marriage is something I have found while doing my searching, and another reason of why I will continue living in the lifestyle. I might not have the husband-wife thing going as it states in this, but the love and joining of two souls and mind is there. Maybe I am reading it all wrong, I don't think so. Anyways, please read it. I would like to hear thoughts on this one.
As Always,
~des~