I've been thinking a lot about things we've talked about. Ever since we had that talk about church (and for a bit before but especially after), I've felt a desire to get back in touch with my spirituality. You told me to get my bible and pray. I haven't prayed in a very long time. I found my bible last night, sat down with it held to my chest, and lit a candle. I didn't have a definite prayer, but I had a very simple request. I asked God that I would feel good about having him in my life again. I asked him to take away my internal conflict that the lifestyle had created. I didn't ask with words, not even unspoken ones. I simply sat with my bible and let him feel my feelings. And ya know what? That restless feeling left me. The conflict left me. Now I have the answer, my answer. Now I know what is right for myself. Now I know that he will not turn from me because of my lifestyle desires. As long as I know in my heart that He is there and will always be there, his peace will not leave me.
Thank you, Robyn.
love you
~lil fly girl who should have known this a long time ago~
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