But I didn't say we couldn't love God with our nature, but what we call Love is really NEED: For 26 years I talked God's ears off if he had any, but that didn't show my love for him, only my need: It felt like love, but it was human love: I wanted to be with God because I could EXPRESS my self to him and I didn't feel his judgment at all.
one day God knew I was READY TO KNOW HIM or not: it was my appointed time to KNOW as I was known and realized I didn't know God at all so I didn't love him: It is written "we love him because he first loved us": the way God loves us is by being the SILENT LISTENER and occassional speaker:
once he reveals himself the first thing he says or said to me was "BE STILL MY SOUL for I am GOD" and that is when it was time to KNOW HIM...listen to him....love him as he loved me;
how did he love me? he gave his life for me, laid down his life for me
I understood in time from that point on that "laying down my life for others" is loving like God loves:
thats why I said we don't really love God as God loves us till he pretty much MAKES US by revealing himself as he Really is:
its one thing to read about God giving his life for us, but its another thing to experience this love and its even more revealing when we realize that from that point on, God is going to help us do the same for others:
what I learned about God during the revelation of God is that he is not "SELF reflective at all: HE is OTHER reflective: To know him is to become the same:
the way that GOD revealed himself is that HE TOOK away my INDIVIDUAL identity and gave me his so I could prove my love lolol
that is the reason Paul was told, its hard kicking against the pricks (of conscience); God in me doesn't look at himself.....but at the NEED of others and supplies those needs continually.....all the time
what he does then in us is the SAME.....and it takes awhile to acclimate to that FOCUS God has within; ITs one thing when we FEEL like being loving, but its quite another thing when we don't have A SENSE OF LIFE or self if we are not reflecting God in our lives: He removes the 'self' oriented ego and gives us another ego or self: ONE that can ONLY SEE outward...
when I look inside I loose focus because there is nothing there to grab onto: I have no other desire than to do what is in front of me for those who are in my life or to SPEAK THE WORD continually; it is in my heart and I don't have to prove it with the written anymore, but I do for those who want to see why I do believe the way I DO: Its not because of my choice, but my choice was made for me, hence the elect are the chosen, those who don't choose anymore, but GOD CHOOSES FOR THEM and IN THEM:
I can't explain it any plainer...and its probably difficult to imagine what I said as true....
This message has been edited by Harpazo on Mar 23, 2010 1:42 PM