I'm very sorry you are disabled but that's no excuse. If you are housebound and completely unable to move then EMAIL a local church pastor.
I have a friend who was shot in the back in a hunting accident 45 years ago and is a paraplegic and he attends church 4 times a week and is an elder. While I feel your pain I cannot readily accept your excuse to not attend. It's seems PRIDE and self pity is your problem. There are many people of faith WHO ATTEND CHURCHES that are FAR WORSE OFF than you. Read the short biography and pray about where your mind is at.
The church NEEDS you and you NEED the church.
You're judging as incorrectly as you interpret the Bible
Unless we LOVE the truth, we cannot know it ~~ Pascal