in my prayer times I "REMEMBER" the God who revealed himself to me in 1992, the HOLIEST most sacred, most JOY FILLED, light filled, sense of LOVE and COMPASSION completely CONDENCED, not watered down by my own limited thinking.
I experienced the LOVE that made everything and this love is the source that makes us WANT TO connect and have compassion on others, but for us, its very watered down so it doesn't overwhelm us:
when you feel it in its pure strength (holiness) the FIRE of it is so INTENSE that you can't Perceive reality the same again ....you never forget it because it IMPRINTS itself in you and on you more powerfully than any other experience
so before this event, I could feel glimpses of this love but it always went away again leaving me wanting
after this event, IT was so HUGE, so ONGOING for years, yes years, that it EXPANDED my consciousness to the point that it became the singlemost memory I have of reality:
now it is easy to RETURN to this place no matter what else I have going on, even sickness, death, hatred around me, all kinds of worldly problems no longer OVERRIDE this experience that forever transformed my EXPERIENCE of life, of reality
its easy to expound that this is more important of a feeling than any other I ever sought for, and is in fact the reality of all feelings I seek for in every other persuit:
so for me, prayer is GOING INTO THAT PLACE that was GIVEN TO ME, imprinted into me, and like water washes away all dirt and fire burns away all impurities, this PLACE inside quickly FIXES all perception and confusion and leaves me feeling brand new every single time:
