Yvonne...you seem like a very nice person. And you seem very spiritual, and like you really love God. And you are really trying hard to articulate your understanding of God. But...I have a really hard time comprehending most of what you write. Even if I read it 3 or 4 times. Maybe I'm just too carnal, or too literal, or too whatever I am. I'm no dummy, but I'm pretty practical and rooted in the ground. I think you are out in the cosmos somewhere, and I mean that in the nicest possible way =)
I'm trying to figure out: do you think the entire Bible is allegory, or is to be understood only metaphysically? Do you think any of the people mentioned in the Bible were real, actual, historical people? Or is it a combination of literal history and esoteric meanings? I'm just trying to understand where you're coming from, what the starting point is.
Sooooo...let's see. I get the part about us being spiritual descendants of Abraham. And I've always had issues with the idea that God would tell anyone for any reason to literally kill their own child (or anyone else for that matter). Taken literally, that whole concept is just so contrary to the very nature of God, as I understand God. But I can accept the story as allegory -- that God gives us wonderful gifts, the desires closest to our hearts, but we have to be willing to give them back to God. Even if it feels like a sacrifice to us, we give God what is most precious in our lives. And God doesn't take it away from us, even when we offer it back to him freely.
And I understand the concept that God -- the Holy Spirit -- dwells within us, and that is how we show God to others. We let our light so shine before men...
John 14:16-17 And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you.
Romans 8:9-11 You, however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the Spirit, if the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ. But if Christ is in you, your body is dead because of sin, yet your spirit is alive because of righteousness. And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit, who lives in you.
However, the point I was making was pretty basic -- in the Bible, there are very few accounts of God showing any physical representation of himself (because God is Spirit, he is not tied to one physical form -- he could be in a burning bush, or a cloud, or a pillar of fire, or a dove, or...) And there are very few people to whom God speaks directly. If God wanted to prove his existence, God could do it. And he doesn't. So, why do some believers feel it is their duty to prove the existence of God -- or think that they even have the ability to do so?