Seoc Colla when your heart is right the Holy Ghost will call you, and you will see. But until then you just sit in your cage, and spit at those who are free in a GOD that the universe can not contain.
There is no comparison Seoc Colla, when and if HE calls you won't know the difference until HE shows you. I was there also Seoc Colla. And I know the difference.
When you understand your meaningless retched existence, HE may call one you, or you may plead with HIM to show you what its all about. And if HE accepts your plea, you will see things you only wondered about hand heard about. I'm not joking.
From personal experience, Tim