All of your efforts trying to convince everyone of this "wonderful experience & insight" that you say you had some 20 years ago has diminished the potential grace of said "experience". If it were a truly profound and divine experience it seems to me that there would be no desire to broadcast it to the world, or to defend it. To give it such "publicity and advertising" cheapens it and turns it into an ego-based testimonial of self-validation.
I mean no offense, and I'm sorry that I can't find more constructive and softer language to make the statement. There seems to be part of a lesson that you're missing.
Take for what you will... Be well.
This message has been edited by ever-a-newbie on Mar 6, 2011 8:58 PM