I moved to Georgia to take care of my mother who had a massive stroke and I was hoping she could be rehabilited: I was in a lot of emotional pain, being the oldest of six and still only 30 years old, I wanted to save my mother despearately: She had the stroke by coming off of miltown, a tranquilizer they gave to women in the 60's, mothers little helper: It was outlawed and not one doctor cared that they had prescribed them for her for 30 years: When she could no longer get them suddenly, she stroked out and wound up on life support: She never recognized me or anyone again till she died a few months later:
I moved my whole family to Georgia: My husband who had a drinking problem at the time and my two young children who were just going into JR High: A set up for disaster:
The JW lady who came to my door seemed like an angel from heaven: She was charming, educated, very chic looking for her age and classic beauty although in her 60's at the time. I loved her and she visited and we read the "JW Bible since they don't let you read any other kind" (it was green at the time): and all the beautiful books (Paradise earth, the red one) and all the little books, the watchtower, awake, never a shortage of doctrine about armageddon or how only a very few could ever expect to receive the HOLY Spirit and become the 'bride class': the rest were FORCED to believe they would be resurrected on earth, whether they liked it or not; if they questioned after a few weeks, they were accused of just not wanting the truth or they would accept it from their mouth, no matter how many things could not be answered from their doctrine: I got the big blue book and while it certainly had a lot of information, it didn't CLOSE any of the dichotomies and I was a very sincere seeker.
my teacher who began with me in such a kind fashion, and took my kids to the water world and other outings with me, began to get impatient with me for not accepting certain things the JW believed: While I gave up the HOLIDAYS and no longer mentioned the birthdays in the family and swore off blood transfusions, I could not let go of the fac that the HOLY SPIRIT was for anyone who wanted it: Jesus said so:
anyway, soon enough she told me how she had to stop seeing her only daughter and disfellowship from her because like me, she just didn't want to accept the doctrine: her husband too was just not playing along and her mother, who had been a JW all her life and indoctrinated her, on her death bed cursed God with a vengeance: I began to see the frustration and lonliness, which is pretty common among people of God, but at least they have GOD:
she wasn't sure if Jehovah would accept her or not at the end; he might not if she didn't perform the requests of the bride class in Brooklyn who decided what everyone would have to believe if they were going to be accepted into the ONLY TRUE ORGANIZATION of Jehovah on the planet:
anyway, the LORD took me out of there.........even though I am sure he led me there.....just to make sure of all things.......and understand all teachings of men........so I could be ready FOR HIS TEACHING when the time came.........ten years later: