Three days ago I lost my precious baby "Frenchie" who was a black toy poodle. She would have been 16 years old on June 22nd. Since I have no children I actually treated her like my child and I loved her very much. Her death has been devastating and my heart hurts very bad. About a year ago she started going into kidney failure and we thought she was going to die then but she pulled through this with the help of a wonderful vet and medication and I learned how to give her fluids under the skin 2-3 times a day. So she was really with us for a year longer than we expected. During that year I had time to prepare myself for what I knew was coming. I gave her all the special love and attention that I could. But even with the time that I had to prepare for her death I really don't think you can ever be ready for something like this. I stayed up with her all night and around 4 a.m. she slipped into a coma and then at about 7:45 am she slipped from my lap to a place where I know she is not in any pain and is free to romp and play as she did so many years ago. God gives us many wonderful creations and we get so attached to some of them that it hurts very bad when they leave us. But I know the same God will also replace the hurt we feel with the wonderful memories that we have in our hearts and minds. So Frenchie, go in peace, and know that you were always loved very much.
6-7-04
