time for me to fly...

Although it has yet to be addressed in a forthright manner (and is perhaps best if we didn't), I've come to sense that a substantial rift has formed in our little Bauhaus.Org refugee community--and that I have (rather inadvertantly) played a major role in it.

To be honest, I always felt my time here was limited, somehow. For various reasons--namely in the life problems and emotional stress department, but also my own frustration (not being a Happy and Contented With Adoring Loved One-type) that this board seemed like a dead-end--ie, I miss having secret admirers--it's generally always the same 6 or 7 people whom I've known for years already. It's all been cast in stone. But I've stuck around cos of the quality conversations and the solid alliances that now, seem to be dissolving. And because of that, I feel it would be better for my emotional health if I just bid farewell now, and return to my hermitage, and (knowing the Org will probably never come back) be content with the good experiences I did have here/there before the personal issues spilled into the mix. I think to go on will only create more negativity, so I won't.

Stay sick...

~valerie bg
july 1998-january 2001