I feel exactly the same and cant understand why. I was 17 when River died, a huge fan and was completely devastated. Kind of forgot about him for a few years, busy having 3 kids and getting married, but found a box of old vhs videos in my loft recently, mostly late 80s early 90s films that i had recorded from the tv and most of them were Rivers films. Started to watch them again to relive my youth and have now found myself completly into him again. I feel like he has just died and i have to get over it all over again, what is going on ? Im on the internet looking up interviews and pictures of him and this is how i stumbled across this site. Its nice to know im not the only one.
R.I.P River you are still missed every day, i find myself wondering what you would be doing today