Hey all! I know most of you here now don't know me - I left the boards a few months ago and I see a LOT of new names now. But I just wanted to say hello to everyone, especially the "old" gang! Anyone still around? I see Nat is - where o where is ICU? And Ana. And Elizalelu. And Pug. Ally, are you here? (I know we talk on MSN, but still... ) Greetings to the newcomers as well. I know this is off-topic, but I hope you'll all be patient and indulge me for a moment. (I'm a nice person, really!! I try very hard to be a reasonable, logical, and realistic person as well. And I like Oasis! That seems to be important nowadays, lol.) When I announced that I was leaving, I revealed in the thread that I was pregnant. (And I know Elizalelu announced her pregnancy then too! Elizabeth, if you read this let us know how you are! If I remember correctly you're due soon!) Well, I had one little secret I didn't reveal to you in that thread - I was having TWINS!! And now I can also reveal that my husband and I recently welcomed our two little bundles of joy into the world - a girl and a boy!! They were born a tad early and are "ittle" as their young cousin calls them (shorties too!), but they were still thankfully born at healthy weights. They're both home and doing really well. I, on the other hand, am essentially a zombie thanks to nursing them both around the clock. But they're beyond precious and gorgeous and I love them more than I ever thought I was capable of feeling love. It's truly an amazing, awesome experience - something I can't even begin to explain. I'm SO happy! My husband is doing a great job as a new daddy, and (bless his heart!) he's even doing the laundry for me! Our babies are our world now, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I would love to be able to tell you guys more, but - just as I never post private information about myself here (my real name or where I live etc.) - I'm not going to tell you their names or post a picture. (But trust me, I'm DYING to show you a picture!! They're the most beautiful babies in the world after all! ) I hope you understand that. As overprotective as I am, their daddy is even worse. That's another new feeling I have now in addition to the ability to feel love to new heights I never knew existed - I never knew it was possible to feel so instinctively protective! I honestly believe I could rip someone to shreds with my bare hands if they ever laid a hand on one of my children. In fact, I feel certain I could. This love I feel for my daughter and son, the bond we have, is astonishing to me - as is the fact that it gets deeper every day. I'm also astonished by the ferocious appetite I've had since I started nursing, lol. Any experienced moms out there will understand that one. * I'd also like to ask that the couple of you out there who DO know my babies' first names PLEASE refrain from posting them here!! (Mine either! I'm just JC here!) I have to maintain privacy on an international board like this. Thanks. *

Anyway, I know I haven't been around in a while and the majority of you have NO idea who I am, but I just had to announce my oh-so-happy news here for those of you who do remember me. And heck, I feel like bragging to those of you I don't know too - I'm just so happy! Equally tired, but SO incredibly happy. Thanks for your indulgence. I'll check back as soon as I get a chance, but it's rare to have them both sleeping at the same time (and even more rare for me to ever get to sleep!). Daddy is on duty right now, but unfortunately he can't nurse them. If only. Take care all.

P.S. - I hope this is coherent - I sometimes can't tell anymore. And if someone truly feels the need to talk about shoes or something here, lol, then heck - go ahead. Nothing could spoil my happiness.

CONGRATULATIONS!!
I know I dont know you. Im quite new, but to catch up on EVERYTHING i read every single message, well most of them, and I saw your threads many times. Anyway that's great news about your twins and I hope everything goes well for you!!!

Hey JC!
Congrats again! Its great! Great great great!
Tyyl xoxox

Many congrats, it's a joy:)!!!

Oh my god, you can tell how happy you are just from reading your post !!! Well, one of each, thats fantastic !!! I wish you all the luck, love and health for the future.

And i think it was me that started the oasis thing on here so yu're a mum with great taste in music !!!

Hey JC! So good to see you again! I'm so so happy for you guys! As a member of the old gang i'd like to express how wonderful this news is and how damn happy I am for you and hubby. Where are ICU, Pug, Ana etc? We want you back guys!

Love, hugs and congrats to you both again

Love Nat and Bump x x

Nat and Bump x x

***Edited to remove usage of personal name***

Didn't she ask you NOT to use her first name?

I believe she did !!!

Since I never sleep anymore I thought I'd pop back over here for a minute - I wasn't expecting so many responses already! Thanks everyone!


Emily:
"Im quite new, but to catch up on EVERYTHING i read every single message, well most of them, and I saw your threads many times. Anyway that's great news about your twins and I hope everything goes well for you!!!"

That was some hefty reading. And it's very sweet of you to post even though we've never talked before. Thanks!


Ally:
"Congrats again! Its great! Great great great!"

Hey stranger! Thanks again. The babies say hi to Auntie Al!


Ale:
"Many congrats, it's a joy:)!!!"

Another nice post from one of the new crowd. Thanks!


Nicola:
"Oh my god, you can tell how happy you are just from reading your post !!! Well, one of each, thats fantastic !!! I wish you all the luck, love and health for the future."

A name I recognize! Yes, I am happy beyond belief, and I was so tired last night I didn't realize how many freaking emoticons I used! LOL! Thanks so much for your good wishes. It means a lot.

"And i think it was me that started the oasis thing on here so yu're a mum with great taste in music !!!"

Thanks - music is a big part of my life. ICU/KeanusLover and I used to talk about our musical tastes on here a lot - we had similar tastes, from the Clash to the Dead Milkmen, lol. My husband was nice enough to make several mix CDs for me to listen to when I was in labor so I could try to focus on something I enjoyed. He's trying (playfully of course) to read a lot into the particular songs that were playing when each baby was born. Our daughter has two songs because "Kiss Them For Me" by Siouxsie and the Banshees was just ending as she let out a fitting banshee-like wail before she was even all the way out!! And then the music shifted significantly as she was officially born to the opening strains of Elvis' "All Shook Up" lol. My husband has taken to calling her buttercup because of the latter song, while I refer to her (lovingly!) as my little banshee whenever she lets loose with those high-pitched squeals of hers. Our son was born to the very mellow sounds of "Step On" by the Happy Mondays, and he didn't even cry initially - he just made these cute little gurgling sounds. Even now he doesn't cry a lot (but he does make these irresistible little whimpering sounds!) - he's very mellow and easygoing. However, it's hard to get a nickname from a song with lines like "You're twistin' my melon man" lol. But oddly enough their little personalities so far DO match up in some way with the songs that were playing when they were born, which I think is adorable. But I think everything's adorable these days. Sheesh, look at me rambling - I could talk about my little ones all day.


Nat:
"As a member of the old gang i'd like to express how wonderful this news is and how damn happy I am for you and hubby."

Many thanks! Hubby and I appreciate it.


ekoostik:
"Didn't she ask you NOT to use her first name?"
Nicola:
"I believe she did !!!"

Eh, I guess it's ok this once. (Nat Nat Nat... :P) I do appreciate both of you being concerned about that, but I won't make a big deal of it since someone else posted my real name in another thread in the past. Besides, I feel fairly certain I'm not the only Jen in the universe , so that didn't really give away anything. This is why NO ONE on these boards knows my last name though! I feel this was an honest slip-up, so no need to make a big deal of it. However, if my babies' names ever get posted on here, there WILL be hell to pay!! (Actually, if that ever happens and my husband finds out, you can delete that wink!!)

Btw ekoostik, I remember you from when I was still a regular here and I know you went through a terrible time losing your brother. I hope you're hanging in there.


Take care everyone and thanks again!!

Ok, I just saw that Jiggy edited Nat's post to remove my name - I had NO idea he was going to do that, and I went and mentioned it again myself just now!! God my brain isn't working AT ALL with this sleep deprivation!! I was just trying to make a point that my name wasn't exactly one of a kind, but I had NO CLUE Jiggy was going to be so kind and step in and remove it from the first post. Jiggy, can you forgive my own "new mommy with TWO babies sleep-deprivation induced" stupidity and remove my name from my own previous post too?? Please?

Sheesh, my brain isn't functioning anymore....

Oh crap crap crap crap I am so sorry (i'm just going to go flush my head down the loo) I am really really sorry. Please don't be mad - well I know you're mad with me but it must have been my pregnancy brain because I wouldn't have done it usually. I'm really digging myself into a big hole aren't I? Sorry again JC bangs head against wall 2 million times

PS Thanks Jiggy

Nat and Bump x x

How cool being born to Step On ? Call the cops !!! Get that boy a set of maracas and call him Bez !!!

It's so nice to see a really happy thread with no nasty comments, just lots of baby joy.

I'm sitting typing this in with a big stupid goofy smile on my face and everything !!!

Hi jc- dont think you know me either but want to congratulate you on you two new bundles of joy!
love xxxxxxxx

JC- First, many congrats to you and hubby. Second, "Btw ekoostik, I remember you from when I was still a regular here and I know you went through a terrible time losing your brother. I hope you're hanging in there." thank you for remembering my brother and I. It's been a bitch no doubt but I'm taking it day by day.

Nicola:
"How cool being born to Step On ? Call the cops !!! Get that boy a set of maracas and call him Bez !!!"

LOL!! I promise that the second he learns to stand I'll teach him that doing some "freaky dancin'" is much more important than walking! Hmm... I'm very tempted now to put some maracas beside him in his bassinet and a weird hat on him just for a quick photo op!! (Somehow I think my husband might object...) I don't actually own any maracas though, but I do have plenty of weird hats left over from my teenage years!! But then I guess I'd have to put my darling little banshee-esque high-pitched squealing daughter in a black wig and black clothes to look like Siouxsie. I'm just kidding... I think. Oh man, I love these two little sweeties so much it's just ridiculous! The sheer giddy pleasure I get from holding them and looking into those big blue eyes, and then inevitably smooching them to pieces, is unreal! Makes up for every single second of sleep I don't get... so far! (Even the resulting stupid things I sometimes do fade away from memory pretty quickly... then again, a lot of things are washed out of my memory these days!! Just ask my poor cats after I forget to feed them!)

"It's so nice to see a really happy thread with no nasty comments, just lots of baby joy.

I'm sitting typing this in with a big stupid goofy smile on my face and everything !!!"

Aww, thanks Nicola!! That's so sweet! I'm so glad to spread my happiness around! Baby love is better than I ever could have imagined!!


rikki:
"Hi jc- dont think you know me either but want to congratulate you on you two new bundles of joy!"

That's very sweet of you! Thanks - and nice to meet you!


ekoostik:
"JC- First, many congrats to you and hubby. Second, "Btw ekoostik, I remember you from when I was still a regular here and I know you went through a terrible time losing your brother. I hope you're hanging in there." thank you for remembering my brother and I. It's been a bitch no doubt but I'm taking it day by day."

Thanks so much for the congrats! And of course I remember you and what happened to your brother - I feel so terrible for what you're having to go through. I lost two lifelong friends a few years ago - my best friend to an accident and another dear friend to suicide - so death is no stranger in my life. (Also lost another friend very recently) I miss them even more now, for obvious reasons. We grew up together. But as hard as that was/is, it would still pale in comparison to losing my brother - who in his own so-called "socially acceptable way" is also a drug addict, just prescription drugs instead of illegal ones. I've lectured him and begged him to get help so many times over the years that I sound like a broken record. I still fear that I may lose him someday if he continues to refuse our constant offers of help. I've already lost so very much of him, of the person he used to be - he's barely even shown interest in my children. Well, anyway I guess that's part of the reason I feel so much for you and the pain you're experiencing. But you seem to be an extraordinarily brave person coming here and talking so openly about your own experiences. Your willingness to talk about it will hopefully help you cope (and heal) as time passes. Moving on after loss is hard as hell, but it absolutely has its rewards - I have two gorgeous little ones beside me right now. Know my prayers and thoughts are with you.

(Another ridiculously long post, I know. Sorry! Did I mention I ramble a lot these days?? )