as a mother of a 20 year old. i'm not supid when it comes to drugs (done my share. however, i of river and wonder, am i missing any signs as far as the new drugs our kid do today. i sat for three hours about a month ago with a 20 year old girl who was pregnant she said she did a lot of crystal meth she would stay up for days the longest was 5 days straight. i don't know why people that seem to have every thing would choose to do drugs and hurt so many people (family and fans). i do love his brother, every time i see one of his movies i think how said he must get when he thinks of his brother. keith ledger died not to long ago another great loss.

That is a good question about why? Why in the world would someone take drugs when it seems everything is going good for that someone.

I doubt I know the one single answer because a human's feelings and motives can be a very complicated thing. There are so many layers and textures to a person's life that it is sometimes hard to tell why a person does what they do. The person him or her self doesn't always know. Behavior can be steady as a rock and full of purpose and common sense for quite awhile, and then a trauma or a variety or reasons or circumstances can start a person's down fall into illegal drugs. I promise; no judging here. It can happen to any one, and its so prevelent here in the city of Kansas City. Here in the city there is literally one or two drug houses to each block some times.

One of the reasons that I think about is the fact people sometimes just like it; are young and think they'll be invulenerable to any bad effects; and especially wanting to get away from one's perceived sad and rough circumstances. I write perceived because the mind reacts to what it believes. Having a belief of hope and faith comparing to feeling hopeless and afraid makes a huge difference. The battle for the mind is a real battle; and can squash one's dreams; spiritual qualities; and direction. On the other hand a battle won can cause one's dreams to be worked out into reality; letting the spiritual side of a person blossom like loving one's enemies; and having a purpose.




On another note Hi to all you River fans. I've learned a lot about River since being here. And its been interesting to get to read different opinions.

And I still know Rikki is my best on line friend I have ever had.

like i said before how good shit is going for you has an impact but not entirly...like I"m 17 and pregnant and I'm a heroin addict and I"ve done almost every drug..and personally i did it because i felt alone and like noone would listen to me or noone understood me....it's more on whats goin on on the inside then the out...cuz you can put on a smile for anyone but when your alone at nightin bed only you know the truth