*At work she sat on her break thinking of Cipher and also thinking of Crass. Her mind was in turmoil. She has no idea what to do. She loves Cipher with all her heart, and yet she knows nothing of how he feels. One moment he makes her feel special, and causes her to want to be around here. But now... Now she feels hurt, alone... One-day things were fine, the next they weren't. Crass openly admitted he fancied her, but she cannot return those feelings. Her heart was somewhere else. She sat in the break room, curled up on the couch, holding herself. Tears fall freely down her cheeks. She is so confused.*
*As the time passes her boss comes in to inform her that her break is over. Catching sight of her like that, he pulls up a chair in front of her.*
"Ceirra, what's wrong child? Why are you crying?"
*She hides her face slowly. Taking deep breathes. Her body shivered, as she spoke slowly and quietly*
"I think the gentleman I spoke to you about before... I think he... I think he doesn't like me... And only made me feel special... Because he didn't want me to know... to know he loves or wants someone else..."
*His eyes widen as he moves from the seat and sits next to her. Wrapping an arm around her he pulls her close, being like a father to a hurting daughter.*
"Ceirra, what gives you that idea? Has he said anything, or done anything to prove that to you?"
*She leaned against him, as she sobbed softly. Her hands grip to his shirt, like a lost scared child. Her voice cracks as she speaks.*
"Everyone that knows him keeps telling me that someone else is after him too. And that if I really loved him that I would fight for him. The day that happened, he ran out of the place. I went to go see him, but he didn't want to see me. I truly believe I made a fool of myself to believe that someone could ever love me."
*He listens to her. Sighing deeply he just holds her close to him. Resting his head against the top of hers. He felt bad for her, she was still young and he knew it. But he also knew how much she cared for this young man, she spoke about him all the time.*
"Ceirra, child.... Never believe what others say, find out the truth for yourself....... Maybe he left because he had to, maybe he is just afraid... Ceirra, listen to me, you are not a fool for believing that someone could love you. I'm sure if given the right chance many men would love to be with you..... But I know... you want this young man, and from what I see you don't want to lose him.... Ceirra, maybe it's time you learned what being an adult is... If you love him as much as you claim, show him, prove it to him. Don't let him go... But if he doesn't care for you in the same way, do understand some men are stupid and don't know a good thing till they lose it. I won't lie Ceirra, it will hurt you terribly but in time you will get over it."
*Listening to him, she felt crushed. All his words were true. Her body shudder, as she felt sick to her stomach. Crying more, she pulls from her boss, and moves quickly over to a large trashcan, where she vomits profusely. After a while, she stops and grabs for a cloth, and wipes her mouth. She slides down to her knees and hangs her head as she cries and pleads in an inaudible voice*
"Oh gods, please help me, help me to not lose the one I love. Please show me what to do, I need the help please....." With her voice audible again she asks her boss
"Why does love hurt so much?"
*He stands up and walks over to her. Gently rubbing her back as he knelt down.*
"Ceirra, if I knew the answer to that I would tell you. But love is a strange thing, as well as a miracle. Even if this young man isn't the right one for you, you will find your true love somewhere. Now come, Ceirra, clean up and go home and rest. You’re too distraught to work tonight."
*She stood up slowly, as she nodded her head listening to his words. In her heart she didn't want anyone else. In her heart all she wanted was Cipher."
"........"
*He gently hugs her and places a kiss upon her forehead. Then lets her go and looks down into her saddened deep indigo blue eyes*
"Ceirra, I will stop by later tonight to check on you. For the next few days do not come into work. My wife will be stopping by tomorrow morning to check on you, she will keep you company. And help you as best she can. Now go... Go home and rest."
*All she could do was nod her head. She gathered her things, wrapping her cloak about her. She then turned and walked out of the tavern. Heading down the street, with her head down. There were people out on the street, some loving couples, which caused her to cry more. And some with children, which forced her into a dead run. Down the street she ran in tears, hurting terribly inside. Once at where she was staying, she went inside, and wrote up a note for. Handed it to her innkeeper and told him to give it to the Keeper of the place that Cipher was at to give to him. Then up the stairs she ran, and with slam of her door, and a thud, she was home.*
-the note for Cipher was-
Cipher,
Here is where I am staying (insert a name) inn. Please, by the gods please, come talk to me. It is imperative that we talk. I have something to tell you.