The Ghost Ship Message Board: Spinning

One day I laugh, the next I cry
My life's out of control
I tell my friends that I'm fine
I play a happy role
When I'm alone, I don't pretend
The tears roll down my face
The pain eats my life away
I'll soon fade with no trace
I can't forget that rainy day
I heard my doorbell ring
My smile turned to solemn tears
I couldn't speak or think
I lost it all in just one day
Life makes some ugly turns
I can't believe you went away
My heart once again burned
Nobody really cares at all
They don't know what it's like
They say 'it will get better soon'
But they don't know my luck
My thoughts and feelings scare me
I've scary dreams at night
Don't I deserve a better life?
I'm way too tired to fight
I'm just a kid, I want some fun
Just take a break from life
But will it ever be my turn
When all I do is cry?
There's such a simple way to hide
To just escape and run
It's easy to injest some drug
and then let yourself die
But I'm still trying to stay strong
All I can do is wait
For something good to come along
And determine my fate
Life's always been a mystery
My tears fill the sea
If I can swim, get to the shore
I might get back the key
That key will open all the doors
Is that such a big crime?
I hope it brings you back to me
The sun would start to shine
My sorrow would disappear
My tears would dissolve
I'd never be the same again
The bad would be resolved

-moi '00