The Ghost Ship Message Board: 'Perhaps'

Im a bitch , perhaps yes
Im a cheater...no.
Im not going to cry
Im not letting you go.

I took the time to care
the time to cry the cold tears
i tried to hang on strong
for now , i'll cover my ears

and pretend i didn't hear what you said
that you didn't throw those words at me
that you didn't tell me there was someone else
only time will show you , what pain i see.

im done with the lies
and more with the pain
you left me cold and lonely
with absolutely no one to blame

im tired and im sick
of myself and of you
i'll cry myself to sleep tonight
and then i dont know what i'll do.

maybe i'll smile
or maybe i'll die
i didn't want to do it , you dont understand
i told you once , i never say goodbye

my health is going
and now my strength is going too
you kept me going for so long
and now you broke my heart in two.

I loved you with no end
you were everything to me
i can't stop crying now..
but this is how you want it to be

you want to see me in pain
you want to watch me suffer
even though i haven't seen her face
i know you care about her.

Sooner or later i'll accept it
and maybe even move on
but i know deep down , the laugh and smile i once had
left the day i found out our love was gone.

-angyl '00
-- he knows who this is for...