Once upon a time, I lived in a fantasy
Where nobody could touch me,
No traitors would fuck me, it evaporated fast, see
I used to love waking up, there was laughter
Now I think, waking up, there's no such fucking thing
As happily ever after
So I just cough and choke, rub my eyes
While you jackals laugh and joke,
I look into the mirror at something I despise
You think I ever wanted to be this cold
I never wanted to feel this hollow, you know
Paranoia in my head, are you friend or foe
I'm not sure, so I wouldn't trust you anyways
There is no cure, for this disease
It just drags on, day after day
You can see it in my eyes, I'm ready to die
I've become what I despise, but I'm too numb to cry
Keep the whats and whys, I'm too stunned, everything was a lie
Coughing up blood, with my sighs, in the noose that I tie
Armed with your guns and your lies, kissing me goodbye
This is me now
What, where, who, but you never ask why or how
That's why you'll never understand
I survive, day by day, how ever I can
We both know life sucks,
But I'm the only one who will say it,
Proclaim it, and try to change it
While you're getting more and more shallow every day
And the only thing you do is try to fuck it away
Then walk around acting like you're okay
We both know you're so fake
Nobody wants to take responsibility
For what they did to me
So fuck taking responsibility
For what I've come to be
The future is dark and I just want to change it
Doom encircling me like a shark, no time to rearrange it
Entombing my heart so you bitches won't betray it
While the beasts tear me apart, you just sit back and okay it
I can't stop once I start, my hand stikes, and I cant stay it
George
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