Yes and I speak with thee most humbly

This is for George, and only George, because George is its only intended reader.

I originally had a bigass pile of shit before the stuff below, close to about 10 pages worth, but on second thought I decided to just give up the fight before it drags out anymore. You guys win. I forefeit this fight. I do it not in admittance that you or Darren is right, because I don't think you are, at least not completely. But that's just my opinion.

I give up in ending this bullshit excuse of an argument. There's tens of millions of things to really debate, argue, piss and moan about; like what could be done to better our lives, make the world safer, I dunno. But message boards, flames, RP, and RP styles shouldn't be among them. They're just words on a damn screen. Pointless words on a screen that shows the fucking world in 50 million colors. So before things get any worse, I'm going to apologize now and say that this entire argument that originally started between me and Darren was utterly pointless and a waste of time. And saying anything more to add to the fire, would be an even bigger waste of time. You made me realize this entire thing is a useless subject among many that will be on this board or any board. So the bullshit ends here. Hell, what I got to say now just might very well be useless just like the rest of the shit that's gone between you, me and Darren. But I say this without hostility toward anyone.

You wanna know what I think about you George? This is 110% total honesty here.

I think you're one hell of a dude. Intelligent, clever, and well...cool is the best way I can describe it right now. I'm not sayin' this to soften you or anything like that. I don't play ass-kissing games. I'm tellin' you straight out.

You got a mean streak and this tendency to "not give a fuck" about a lot of things, at least from what I've seen and heard, but hey, that's you. We all got that moment every now and then, right? I wouldn't want you to change for me or anyone else just to make them happy. I wouldn't ask you to or any other person on this planet to change. You're not harmin' anyone except those who deserve a good swift kick in the ass, and there's a lot of asses to kick. And every now and then I'm one of 'em. I know that, and accept that fact. Hell I kick my own ass sometimes. ~L~

But anyway, I don't have any problems with you and I don't plan on having any. All I wanted to do was just point out some shit, get it off my chest, and move on.

If anything about this goddamn post of mine is somewhat useful, it's gonna be the shit below:

I don't like it when people say shit about me anymore than you or Darren does about the either of you. And when people say shit, I got two choices - ignore 'em or clarify a few things. I really need to learn to just shut the fuck up cause clarifying anything comes out in anger with me and well...it's not too clear then and I often end up sayin' shit that will just drag things out further, kinda like where we're at now; The dragged out part.

All I was trying to do initially, was ask Darren in a NON-insulting manner as to why he would complain about something I honestly felt was something he hasn't contributed to and seems like he's given up on trying. Look at what I got in response. Yeah, I do sound angry when I respond to the shit from way back when (with KMAC and all that), but I hate it when people sit and say I did things that I didn't do. Wanna know why? (Though you probably won't care) It's a natural reaction for me. Everytime I didn't defend myself on when people accuse me of doing stuff that I didn't do, I wound up getting blamed for it anyway. I figured then, that if I'm gonna go down for something I didn't do, I may as well go down trying to prove my innocence. Now, it's obvious it's a no-win situation for me. Dare I keep trying? That's the question in my head right now.

I don't know where I stand with you George, and frankly, I don't think it'd matter to either of us anyway. We don't speak to each other until moments like these. But I do respect you for a lot of reasons. I don't remember insulting your style of RP, because you DO go out of your way to make things fun for EVERYONE, unless my eyes have been playing tricks on me. So for that, I do apologize if I did insult your style of RP.

But as far as Darren's, yes, I have attacked it. Because I've had a few doses here and there of it. And frankly, it's not what I'm comfortable with because from what I've had of it, I've essentially been dumped into it without any word to me as to whether or not I would like to go through with it. I've told Darren in times past about it but still, I've wound up with repeated amounts of that. I was pushed into the corner, so I come out flying before something I really won't like began to happen. Now I ask you George - was I right to do that, or should I have sought out other methods to tell him, "Darren, lay the fuck off me."?

I'm not trying to make this some sob story to make you feel guilty and it'll most likely be read that way. But I'm above that, thank you. I'm tellin' you what I think would be best to say in order for you to see what I originally tried to point out, but with less anger. I don't know why it is that way George, but for some reason I see you as someone who can actually listen to reason. Maybe I'm wrong in seeing you that way, I don't know. But, I've always found that I can get my point across to you better than anyone else. You seem to actually try to comprehend what I do try to say when I say it.

I leave it to that. You might feel like all of this is just bullshit, and I don't blame you. If I saw things through your eyes I'd probably see it that way too. But I remind you again that every word in this post of mine is with complete honesty and without sarcasm.