Hammer,
I have not had the pleasure to meet you in person, as have many others here, but know of you only from your posts.You certainly have made a favorable impression on many for sure.
It's tragic, for sure, what's happening to you,,,But temporary too! Hopefully, All around you will give you the encouragement that you will need now , No doubt, as you have had a positive impact on the lives of others.
Keep in mind though the words of Isaiah chapter41 vs.13 which reads " For I, Jehovah your god, am grasping your right hand. The one saying to you, Do not be afraid, I myself will help you".
So you see, You will not go through this alone and you will get through it!
Meanwhile , You are certainly in the thoughts and prayers of many.