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indianna22 (no login)
Posted Jan 16, 2007 9:56 AM
Hi everyone,
Right here my nbe history. Im 23, 34a/aa lopsided. I used brava for five months last year between febuary to june and had about half a cupsize growth. I've been massaging my smaller breast for about 3 months now and taking wonderup for about 7 weeks. I have a history of depression and was on anti-depressants for about a year and a half until about a year and a half ago. Hate to admit it but i'm extremely ashamed of my breasts which is probably why i haven't had a boyfriend for the last 3 years,
don't know the exact reason, but it seems that since wonderup/ massage my smaller breast has shrunk & looks worse than before. I don't know whether to carry on or give up.
I think this is actually making me dreppessed I seemed to be consumed by it- its the first thing i think of when i wake up & before bed, i'm allways checking them to see of they have grown & always on here.I've turned down dates because I know eventually when the guys my breasts he will be disappointed- i dont feel sexy- after I stopped using brava when i had the swelling i did ( or normal)
i feel ashamed for feeling so shallow and don't want to tell anyone about nbe for that reason.
After brava, when i had the swelling I though i'd left some of that insecurity and self hate behind in my teens but it seems to have loomed its ugly head again.
I was surfing the internet the other night and came accross Body dysmorphic disorder & think I might have this.
I think i wasting my life being consumed by this pathetic obbsession but it is uncontrollable.
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