So... about 3 days ago I decided to throw out my Silicone inserts that I've been wearing for 6 years. These disgusting Jelly things used to make my breasts feel so uncomfortable, especially in the summer time when I used to sweat because they would stick to my breasts and feel wet and itchy, ewww i know. Then in the wintertime when it's cold and when I didn't have time to warm them up I had to put these freezing things in my bra, ooooh that was uncomfortable!!!
I went away for the holidays to the far far east and it changed the way I looked at everything. First of all, I think people in the west can be very judgmental and shallow compared to the people in the east. Women over there are not as big breasted, but compared to them I'm still very flat chested, yet when I went out wearing a very small bra that made me look like a AA, I didn't feel uncomfortable at all, I felt very accepted, in fact, it seemed as though breasts and butt etc were things they did not focus on as much. So before coming back to the states I said to myself "I am not going to have any one make me feel inadequate like this ever again" and took the jelly things and threw them out. It felt soo good to see them in the trash can, it was emotionally relieving and liberating. I honestly wanted to take a knife and tear those things up LMAO, sorry if I offended anyones jelly pads but I really hated those things LOL.
Then I took the 2nd step and through out my "ass inserts" lol... yes, I am guilty of wearing those too. And that felt good as well, surprisingly it was a little more difficult to throw out those, because I always thought a woman will small breasts will be O.K. if she has a cute butt rather than the other way around, but here I was, without my butt and breasts inserts and for the first time I just didn't care anymore.
I am so tired of having to fake my look because of some standards set by people, I am not my body or my face, so why am I being judged based on these things as if these things really add value to the person I am?
I think it was just past due that I made the choice I made, remember my "weed post"? LOL.... i think there was a reason why I wanted to take out my inserts in front of my male friend AGAINST my will and for those who don't know what I am talking about, I got high a while back for the first and last time and the side-effect was wanting to do things against my will, like show my friend my breasts aren't real, and every dirty girl secret I have lol lol... I get shivers thinking about that... anyhow, On the way to my destination in the far east I had to go past security and please tell me why I was picked by my airline to go through random check when I only had 10 minutes to get to my gate?
They made me go in this machine that scans your body, and the boy that sat behind the computer had this weird look on his face and i instantly knew, it's one of those machines that can see your real body shape, sense heat, and see if you have anything on you, and I guess he was surprised to see how flat chested I was, he was probably like "Oh but, I thought those were real!"< yes dear, I invested a lot in those jelly pads, they better have looked real to you.
Anyhow, going back to the U.S., I wore tight jeans and the tightest sweater I have with no inserts or anything for the first time and I must admit it was hard at times because I went to the bathroom a few times to look at myself to reassure myself that my small breasts are cute, but then it didn't bother me anymore.
I really felt sexy, i wasn't afraid of moving any way I wanted to (Because before I had to make sure i moved right so the inserts wouldn't shift or fall out if I bent over), and surprisingly there were many guys who looked my way in interest and one even whistled at me.
I really think this all was a "mind" thing for me, things are much worse from your own point of view, when in fact, most people/guys don't even care about the things we're insecure about...
You have achieved one of the principle effects of NBE - self acceptance. You are beautiful just the way you are. Small breasts are just small breasts, not an external indication of your worth.
What you are wearing now instead of those 'chicken fillets' is confidence and nothing looks better than that.
You go girl! I'm so happy for you! You're truly a motivating chica! :)
The 'i invested alot in those jelly pads, they better look real' was just pure win! Lol! I hear ya.
As for the insert comment, no offense taken. I'm a lil tired of wearing them myself, but I'm more timid than you so...yeah. Not until I hit the B cup mark will I stop wearing 'em. But man, I'll feel exactly how you do once I get rid of these things. Liberated and confident! Thanks for the great post and much luv!
Sunshine (no login)
Re: Never Again!!!
January 18 2009, 9:44 PM
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Re: Never Again!!!
January 19 2009, 12:00 AM
Way to go!! ::high five::
Thanks for the totally uplifting and inspirational post:)
thanks everyone,
waxingmoon, YOU are the inspiration on this forum with your high-spirited heart ;-),
everyone, i am now comfortably walking everywhere, wearing anything i want, wearing an almost unpadded bra (There is minimal padding on the bottom but my breasts still look flat) and i feel so good!
Men still look my way, not more, or less than before when i had major padding.
The biggest change mentally is my acceptance of everything, so now i can comfortably do NBE without the pressure of having bigger breasts, which is a motivation to not give up, because at this point i'm doing NBE for fun!
WOOHOO!! Sounds awesome. Confident people who wear clothes that fit them are always attractive in my opinion.
And yes- NBE is FUNNNNNN!!!!!!!!
Little Ones (no login)
Re: Never Again!!!
January 30 2009, 2:49 PM
Thank you for sharing your wonderful story, glad to know you have accepted what you are and how you look.
I have a pair of those jelly pads, I only wore them a couple of times, I hated so much, always feels like they were slipping down to my waist and I always worried about they might look uneven.
I always wanted to have breast implant a few years back after I gave birth to my baby as my boobs gone up to a D cup and it looks wonderful on my tiny waist.......somehow I've changed my mind these few months and I don't want to get boob job anymore, the more I looked at my boobs the more I like the way they looked, if you remember I have mentioned on an earlier post, I think my boobs look bigger and fuller, but somehowthe measurement has gone down, I actually didn't feel extremely sad about the number anymore, on the other hand I am more appreciate what I've got and it suit what I am. (Even I still want my boobs to grow a little bit more bigger, but I don't get extremely frustrate about the size like before)
I would prefer to look after my skin so I could stay younger longer, this is my main goal now.
Yes little ones, I hear you loud and clear lol, I too think that having flawless skin on your face is the #1 instant attraction for both women and men, it shows you are healthy inside and outside, and quite frankly, if I were dating a man, it wouldn't matter how well endowed he was or how great his body was, if his skin was ugly and his teeth were bad, it would be enough to turn me off.
I used to be frustrated about the size as well, so even if NBE doesnt do much for my breasts, hey, if it can improve the shape of my non-existent boobs, that's all I would need to be happy!
Anyway, after taking the 2nd step to going completely padless (a 3-5 mm pad still counts), I will take the final step, which is going bra-less, this should be sometime this year, and it will probably be the hardest thing to do. Even if I had a boobs I would feel uncomfortable without a bra, because I have those hard nipples that are erect ALL the time (then I would really feel naked with my breast shape being that exposed, its like showing a camel toe through your pants). Maybe I should take my time out to design little nipple warmers, you know how your hands have gloves and your feet have socks? I would make little soft pockets that would hold the nipples and I would call these "Nipplets", maybe I'll cut a deal with Victoria's Secret lol ;-)
All jokes aside, I noticed the difference in the men I attracted when I changed my looks. I used to really dress up and be dolled up with all the fake stuff (Pads and all), and the men I attracted were all the wrong ones. Then just recently I stopped wearing make up (Lipgloss included), No hair products (I hate products now and anything that isn't pure and natural, I even went "no-poo"), no more perfume (I wear light scented oils), No more dramatic nails (They're cut and neat now), in other words, I went all natural, and the men I attracted actually seemed into me. Most have manners and great personality. It is really interesting how a change of looks can change the kind of people you attract, I know this is a no-brainer but, once it happens to you, it is quite intriguing and it inspires you to really get to know yourself and it makes you question why you did the things you did before, when these superficial things never brought you one step forward towards building your relationships or your life.
Little Ones (no login)
Double_Ace
February 4 2009, 11:55 AM
You're so funny, you know you could get those nipple stickers thing from the lingerie stores. I don't think I want to go braless, not the size issue, just because I feel more secure for wearing bras when I go out, as my nipples erected all the time just like yours, I don't want people keeps looking at my nipples poking out underneath my shirt all the time, it's kind of embarrassing also just give myself some protection, like when I'm wearing mini skirt, I definitely wear a little short short underneath to prevent pervert.
I'm so happy for you that you are accepted what you are, this is a key to success for being a woman "Confident", a big congrats for a great achievement, I'm sure that you could go braless one day without fears, keep up the good work!
I haven't worn a bra in years, it feels great! I end up wearing a lot of black though, or t-shirts with designs on the front, so I don't show any nipplage. Hehe. I am one of those ladies who can jog braless and not feel a thing.
LaReve, I went braless for the first time today and it felt GREAT!, except it's cold here and I wore a big winter jacket, so no one could really see, but the feeling was great.
The biggest challenge is going braless in front of friends who are used to seeing me being a B cup to now, flatter than a AA. I will still do it, but in time ;-). So now I'm just waiting for the heat to come so I can go braless without the coat, ;-)
Little Ones (no login)
Nipple Covers
February 6 2009, 8:53 AM
Hi Double_Ace
Here is the link for the Nipple Covers, check it out.