I have recently decided that I am just not dedicated to go about this whole NBE malarky. There are several reasons, which I want to share with you because it may strike a chord with some of you, so here goes:
- I have other things in my life that I know I need to focus on more, and I am the kind of person that gets distracted easily and tries to accomplish too much/taking on too many things and end up with many incomplete projects on the go. Really my spare time and money should be going on developing my own artwork in a view to selling it at some point.
- I know I am lucky to have a man that loves me for who I am (and my 'little cherries' as he calls them).
- I do not have the discipline or finances to continue an NBE program. God, I'm crap enough at getting up and having breakfast in the morning (every weekend, I tell myself that on Monday I will get up, have a relaxed breakfast and wake up properly, and every Monday morning, I leave it till the last possible minute, before throwing on my clothes and shoving my stuff into the car).
- I thought it bothered me more than it does. When I first moved down here, the fake clones that are the local women did make me feel inadequate, as they are all WAG/glamour girl wannabes with their terrible orange makeup and breasts bursting out of their clothes. But the point is, I don't want to be like them, I want to stand out from the crowd, and I do feel it is a very localised culture where women look like they do here.
- I don't think it's possible for some women. It is annoying sometimes to have such tiny, non-existent boobs, and uneven ones at that, but I watched a programme on BBC2 called Why are Thin People Not Fat?. It pretty much said that fat cells are stored permanently in your body as you are growing up, and if you do not store them at this time, it is harder to generate them at a later date. These fill up with lipids and you get the blobby stuff. The programme summarised by saying that your body determines your size and shape during puberty and once that is established, and providing you eat a stable, regular amount, you will never really change. This is the body nature has given me, and as much as I envy boobs on page3 sometimes, I could have been given much worse, and I should be grateful for that.
- I at least have a nice arse! We've all got some part of our body to be proud of, and I do appreciate my bum. For a small woman it's surprisingly round and perky.
I have looked at several picture pages and read hundreds of posts. I wish that you could see how damn gorgeous your bodies are, and especially your boobs!! I've often wondered what some of you are doing on here. Men just like boobs, any boobs. I think they are just chuffed if a woman will get naked for them to be honest. It's women that make life hard for women. We should be celebrating these boobs, not criticising them, in their different shapes and sizes, perky ones and ones that have done their job and fed our children.
I hope you all find what you are looking for,
Hopefully I'll get my perky arse in gear and sort out my artwork!!
All the best,
Helen
I enjoyed reading this post. I'm very happy for you that you've come to accept yourself and enjoy being unique. I am happy with who I am and my boyfriend does not complain about my breasts but I wouldn't mind having a little more up top and if there's a chance that NBE will make that happen, I'll take it and see what happens. So if there's hope for them to grow, I'll keep trying. If not, I have nothing to lose. We all have different things in life going on and I'm glad you've decided to focus on what's important to you. All the best to you as well! Take care!
I think you have reached a huge milestone in your life that most people never achieve!!!
Self acceptance, and self love is more important and more difficult to achieve than almost anything.
You talk about the fake 'orange' girls, that makes me laugh!!! :) I know exactly the type you are talking about - and the fact is that most of them are probably desperately insecure themselves. And are fairly incapable of self-reflection, simply because it's to 'deep' or scarey for them, so it's easier to be shallow - what can I say - ignorance is bliss!!
And as far as artwork goes - being lost in the moment of creating your next masterpiece is deeply satisfying and rewarding to the soul! I know, I used to paint and long to get back into it one day when time permits.