Hey,lovely ladies.I had been only lurking for about a week,then became really depressed due to situations going on at work.I am really suffering there.I was put on administrative leave and then went back on just Thursday.Darn,hoping to get paid time off until July 2nd,anyway.I was depressed about the leave,but even more depressed to actually be back there because of hostility.I was really afraid that it would halt my growth or that I would shrink. I was feeling really sore all that week and this past week.I was trying to relax out by my pool and make the best of the time off.I was really hoping to be on leave for the whole 30 days to get other things going,but they called me back.
I had been feeling sore all this week as well.I got a little baked in the sun yesterday on my back and neck.But I just really felt sore and full and knew it was nowhere near the PMS time,so I dug out that old 34C bra that I tried on last month that fit in width and circumference,but a tad loose and wrinkly at the top.Well,I put it on and OMG! It flippin fit like a glove! There is no padding in this bra at all.I thought my 34B's had stretched with my growth but just chucked it up to wishful thinking.You know how it is.I will still have room for the 34C to stretch,but it fits and actually supports me.I tried on an old 34B bra that is not padded either,and I actually looked smaller in it because it squashed me flat.I am so excited about this.I just totally by-passed my non-padded 34B bra.Good ending to a bad 3 weeks.I was so proud that I actually walked around in that 34C bra for hours last night----sunburn be damned!
That does lead me to some apprehension,however,and I need your ladies advice and opinions.I am in a job that I totally dread going into everyday.Too long to list,but they have done me wrong for no reason.It's not just one thing,it's tons.I actually have document after document.Now,I know the meaning of work because I always have.It's not meant to be a bed of flowers.But when you actually get physically sick thinking about going to work or on your way there.Always that feeling of trepidation,what the hell is going to happen today feeling,walking on eggshells.It's horrible.I am on a job with an employee turn over rate of 70%-----and I've been there for 4 years this time.I was actually re-hired.You have to leave on good terms to be re-hired.I won't be leaving on good terms this time.But,my time there is closing in.
My daughter-in-law is going to heart specialist to make sure everything is okay with baby.They have heard some abnormalties with heart.I know this is going to be okay.Well,my son and soon-to-be-dad has TMJ like me and he has to have surgery on this.It will be okay.He thought it was cool that his jaw would pop really loud on its own and started popping it all the time,for the hell of it.I told him this could only aggravate his condition.He is also like me in another aspect and I am not happy to pass this on,but it is genetics.I had gestational diabetes all three times pregnant,and I am now hypoglycemic.He did not tell me he had been passing out/blacking out.My mother and I cornered him about this.His girlfriend told us about it.He gets this way when he hasn't eaten.I asked him to describe if he gets any other feelings as well.He admitted when he gets hungry that he gets very ill and short-tempered.He gets the shakes.I asked him if he gets feelings of combinations of extremely hot and cold at the same time.Yes,he does.He also gets very thirsty and urinates a lot.He says afterwards he feels so weak and helpless(from the blackouts).I explained to him that he probably is hypoglycemic and that it affects me the most of the time in the summer as well.Also at times of high stress.I told him it is important to eat just something about every 4 hours.It does not have to be a large amount.I told him he needs to take protein drinks in the morning and of an evening.That way,if he does miss a meal it won't attack his nervous system.He asked if I thought if the overdose he had last year could have brought it on.I let him know that this is probably just pre-wired in him(because of me),but that yes,it could have onset it a lot earlier,as his body took some hell of hits from it.I also let him know that it could be a good thing that he is finding out about it earlier in life that way it can be montitored and controlled.I told him he won't necessarily be on medication,as he is still young and healthy,but he will need to consume food at regular intervals and be healthy for the most part.Even though I smoke and drink coffee,people make fun of me because I eat so healthy.He goes to the doctor next week for this.We will have to get him on insurance.
The main thing is these kids need me and I can't let the blood suckers from work interfere with my family's health.The point I'm getting to is that I am afraid I will not be able to afford the basis of my routine.I know the product I take is not very well received here and is on the blacklist.But,it got me going and I am on my 4th month of it.I was wanting to take it atleast 6-9 months,then stop it and take the other individual herbs I take along with it.I feel like I might shrink without it.Do you think I will be okay with the other herbs I am on and keep the growth I already have and still keep growing? I take the commercial product along with 320 mg SP extract,cayenne,Vit C,prenatal vitamin,1300 mg gelatin,1000 mg MSM,1000 mg Vit C,and 500 mg PM.I do take the PM for 2 weeks,then off 2 weeks.I am off this week.Could I maybe make that 1000 mg daily? Oh,I do spread my herbs throughout the day.I will really miss the gel of the commercial product,but do massage mid-day with Palmer's.Could I just use that for massage? I don't have time to make my own batter,but maybe I will soon.The product I take contains WY extract,chamomile,lecithin,aloe vera(neautralizes the effects of caffeine),safflower,black cohosh,burdock root,jojoba oil.
Do you all think I could incorporate aloe vera,lecithin,etc. into my routine,or do you think I would be okay with just the other individual herbs and upping the PM? I really need encouragement,knoweledge,honesty,and affordability for my program.I also take Bustea most of the time,but I have been slacking on that for about a week now.I seem to do okay with the Fenugreek in tea,but would not want to take a chance taking it as a whole herb due to hypoglycemia.Thanks everyone in advance.Looking forward to hearing the input.Sorry about my long post and endless rambling,but that's the whole situation.Hope you didn't fall asleep.

That is one massive post, which I am going to respond to with a much shorter one, simply because I have a ton of stuff to get thru tonight, but thought you needed an answer!

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You seem to take one h*** of a lot of stuff there. Totally understand how expensive it gets. I can only speak from my expereince but I found when i was taking winderup and a whole host of other bits and pieces, ultimately I had less success than now, when I am just taking Pm and using Pm spray.

I use the PMUK stuff which has had both good and bad press, and feel it definitely working, and with only one capsuel a day instead of two (2 completely destroyed my cycle.) i speay with Pm then massage with EPO. All in all it is much cheaper and sustainable in the long term. Might work for you too!

Hey,mad boobie! Thanks so much for reading through that and responding.I did not realize the post was so long until I started editing it.I haven't been on here for about a week and a half.I just did not want to lose what I had accomplished.I needed a vent as well,I guess.I do take PM,so that and the other individual herbs would probably be okay.It is possible that I may have even more success,and that would be good.Hope I'm like you and have even better success with fewer things.

I have heard with PM that you always have to take atleast a maintenance dose to keep your size? Do you know anything about that? Thanks again so much for responding.Happy growing!