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The survivors of this type of assault to their marriage commonly suffer PTSD type symptoms, as you seem to be doing at this time. This is relatively normal. It often relatively normal for the "perp" to want to push past this as soon as possible, and take a "get over it" attitude. My window where I could speak about it with my wife was less that three weeks.
Your H seems to have taken responsibilty, and seems to understand the damage he has done to both you and your marriage. These are good signs
Metaphorically, the house you two built (your marriage) has been razed to the ground. You have a foundation (your past), but the rest must be rebuilt. You two can begin to do this, hand in hand.
But it will take you time to move on from this. You won't "get over it". It will be with you.
Resuming intimacy takes trust. It takes believing your partner cares about you, and has your best interests at heart. It takes time. Move at your speed that you are comfortable with. Talk openly, and reveal your heart to him. If he does the same, you are on a solid path.
Good luck. I am pulling for you.
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