H2C where are you? I have missed you on here for a few days. I sent you a message about a week ago. Just checking on you.Hope things are ok!

Hi Kathy, I was out of town and away from all computers for 5 days. I do that sorta thing in my business. I'm home only until early Thursday morning this week and gone until Sunday night. Every week is like that until the end of October.

I read your last post and really don't know what to say. Maybe you do expect too much if he has always been this way, even pre-affair. I certainly understand your "needs" though. We BSs need to see sincere actions for reassurances and we need reassurances often, very often. Thats why some of us ask the same questions over and over for a long time - to get reassurances that everything is going to be ok. At one year out all I could do was make a daily decision whether or not I would stay.

Boy, I'd really like it if my wife hated OM but she is just not capable of hating anyone like that. She has hated herself more than anyone else that she knows. I've seen my wife put her own self through hell over this, probably hurt worse than me if thats possible. And still I had my doubts for almost 4 years that I could forgive her for what she did. Things are finally leveling out for us but I still have some really bad days. There is so much crap (infidelity) going on with her siblings that it is constant triggers for both of us. Most of her family are not very understanding either. But infidelity in general now makes me super-sensitive. Its every where, all around me, and yet I can't get used to it. Some times I feel like I'm the one out of step.

Glad that things are ok for you.
You are sooooooo right , infidelity is all around.It is so hard not to think about it when everywhere you go someone is cheating on someone.I guess it goes to show we are not alone in this big old world!
I don't think our WS can ever truly understand the way we feel and the way we look at things now.They may know they hurt us but they don't realize how they changed us.
I do wonder if i will ever be satisfied with anything my H does.It never seems to be enough for me.I feel he owes me more.I guess i feel that way because he has put me thru a living hell.Oh well has they say 'life goes on". I can't make him feel what i feel.
I was wondering how you were when the hurricanes went thru N.C. Where you affected at all? You are in N.C. right?Hope you came thru it ok.

Would you believe 3 years in a row I have rented a beach house on OBX for my immediate family (we like to surf fish) and all 3 years we've had to deal with a major storm. This year was Ernesto who dropped over 10 inches of rain but the winds were only 55 mph. Last year Ophilia lasted all week while we were there and had 93 mph winds with damage to every building in the area. Year before last it was Charlie (I believe) that came up thru Florida and behind us.

Any way this year we left a couple of days early on Friday. I loaded the truck in my bare feet standing in 6 inches of flood water. We went straight west like drowned rat refugees LOL to a dear friend's house in another part of NC. Kathy, thanks for asking.

Speaking of infidelity, I just found out that my brother is getting a divorce after about 10 years. This will be the end of marriage number two for him and he stands to loose everything, house, vehicles, cash, maybe 401K. (He lost his a$$ last time too.) Guess why. I can't go into details but this is gonna be bad. Also this is causing triggers for my wife and I. If triggers were fireworks we could light the place up like Disneyland. You'd think I'd be use to infidelity as much as I see it around every corner.