I'm home from work today because in a couple of hours I am goig in for a breast biopsy. Something was seen on a routine mamogram. Went back for a second one and they also did an ultrasound. Since they still can't be sure what it is, I am going in for a biopsy today. I am scared about the procedure itself, and even more scared about the results. I should know Monday.
Husband and friends are being very supportive...but nobody knows EVERYTHING going through my head. My self-esteem was badly damaged by the affairs and still is. Could never help but compare myself to "Mrs. Perfect Breasts". I actually, horrible person that I am, wished something like this on her. Maybe this is my penance for those thoughts.
So here I sit and wait and wonder and if the worst case scenario comes to be, it will just cement in my head the feeling of being ugly that I have had for the past 3 1/2 years.
Could use some prayers.
This message has been edited by nobodys.fool on Mar 19, 2009 9:56 AM