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Finding myself again

May 18 2005 at 6:10 PM
  (Login Jean150)

I write this as I'm talking to both of my children so, if it's a little disjointed, well.....I'll sound just like my usual self!

I've started swimming again, and it feels wonderful (altho I usually have to crash for an hour's nap in the afternoon after I swim!)  "Back in the day" I used to be a lifeguard and swim 4 -5 miles a week.  Well, when met my husband, I found out that he didn't like to swim, so, guess what, I started swimming less and less, and worked out less and less, so that I could be with him.  Then I got pregnant right away when we got married back in 1994 and my exercise routine went downhill even more.  After children, well, no swimming laps then because my H refused to help out with the children so I could go.  I usually didnt' go during the day because I was worried about the housecleaning, getting dinner ready, his schedule, his opinion, crying babies, blah blah blah.

What a prison I was in!  For more than a decade, really.

Now is my time.  Monday, and then again today!  I feel wonderful!  Even during laps today, I started getting into the "rhythm" of breathing and felt stretched out in the water, long and lean (even tho I know I'm not!).  But I felt more like "myself" than I have in a long, long, time.  Swimming always brings that back to me.  I was able to get partial financial assistance at the YMCA, and, whoopee!  I don't know how much the fibromyalgia might hold me back -- with fibro it seems that one's always walking a fine line between too much exercise and not enough.  But I feel good.

I'm even finding that now that, as far as men and dating goes, I can take it or leave it.  If it fits into my life, fine.  If not, oh well.  I wish I would have had this attitude 15 years ago.  But then no one could have taught it to me -- I wouldn't have "got it."  Why is it that some of us take so long to learn the lessons of what's good for us?

Jean


 
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Sandy
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Tell me about it, Jean!

May 18 2005, 6:21 PM 

I like swimming too, but feel guilty about going cos I feel I ought to be spending my time with him.... but he goes to golf whenever he wants. How dumb is that. Anyway, I was a lifeguard too, going back, ooh, five stones! I always swam laps, was never any good at sprinting. But I can still do it, even after years of nothing! I can swim further than most people can walk. I can't run and I aint fit, wonder how come I can still get in that pool and swim 3 miles with no practice?
Also, since I was last here, I've started going to college to learn Spanish. I'm rubbish!! But I'm trying, and really proud of myself for even going!!
Keep up the laps xxxx

 
 
GT
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Re: Finding myself again

May 18 2005, 9:58 PM 

Sandy wrote>>>Also, since I was last here, I've started going to college to learn Spanish. I'm rubbish!! But I'm trying, and really proud of myself for even going!!<<<

I'm glad you are proud of yourself for taking classes Sandy, because you should be.  Sometimes just stepping out of our comfort zone and doing the smallest thing (not that learning Spanish is a small thing) can make a big difference in our outlook. BTW, my husband knows just enough Spanish to get himself in trouble when he tries to talk to someone. He gets his gender words mixed up and once insulted a lady we met. He thought he was inquiring about a male friend of her's, but the look on her face let us know in a hurry that he'd gotten his words mixed up.  Luckily someone was there to translate and cleared it up. LOL

I am getting my stuff together and taking some courses in the Fall. One is a human behavior course at our local college. It's something I've always wanted to do, but kept saying....maybe next year. I've run out of excuses, so I finally signed up. 

GT


 



    
This message has been edited by gettingthere on May 18, 2005 10:00 PM


 
 

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Sandy

May 19 2005, 9:20 AM 

<<I like swimming too, but feel guilty about going cos I feel I ought to be spending my time with him.... >.   Do what you want to do.  He does. 

 
 
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