I just need to scream. I'm am just so OVERWHELMED I don't know where to start.
Item a -- mom still in intensive care in hospital after her heart surgery. She should have been out long ago but they can't seem to regulate her blood pressure. She's down, she's out, and I'm stressing because progress is so slow... and my sister is a wreck. She panics over everything ...
Item b -- kids are finishing school today -- thankfully because there's been a huge build-up of activity this past month with my daughter graduating and my son going on field trips all over the place and it's been one thing after another. But now they're going to be home all summer and bugging me to do stuff with them.
Item c -- kids are getting sick -- we've had a heat wave as well as smog alerts in my area. Going in and out from air conditioning to super heat plus the air pollutants has made my daughter ill. She's coughing up a storm and now my son is complaining of sore throat. If they expose me I won't be able to go near my sick mum who is at risk of infection.
Item d -- work is hell -- projects are running late, deliverables are running high, fighting fires all over the place, things are disorganized and because I've been tied up with my mum and my kids I haven't had enough time to devote to work and things are out of control and just getting worse.
Item e -- the weather SUCKS!!! It is so hot and so sticky and I don't have any clothes that fit because I've gained 20 pounds over the winter. At one point this morning I just lost it because I couldn't find anything to suit the weather that didn't also make me look like an overstuffed sausage.
Item f -- HINO is working at two jobs -- he had alot of financial problems and he needed to take two jobs -- one in the day and one evenings and weekends -- to pay his bills. Good for him and good for me eventually because I've been having to pay his bills for a long time. But all of a sudden I'm like a single mom with NO support. He's never home to do anything. Just now my daughter called from school because her cough is worse. I had to set up an appointment with the doctor. I had to chase HINO down to find out when he could take her because I have to go to the hospital to visit my mum and figure out what's going on...
Oh and while I'm trying to deal with HINO and coughing daughter and freaking out sister and my cell phone is ringing -- my boss and collegues are in my office trying to diagnose what the heck is wrong with one of our systems that just crashed!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
Someone tell me that this is all going to calm down eventually? Please?
Looking at that picture just makes you FEEL calm!!
Jane, I hope you're down on planet earth by now, and not up in the sky. You're having a horrible time just now, and I'm sure it will calm down soon. Hope so
xxx
My mum is out of intensive care but now she's experiencing alot of challenges in her recovery. Many of them are normal but my mom is in major victim mode.
Today I spent hours with her at the hospital just running around being errand girl and getting snapped at most of the time. Oy vay...
Anyway my sister, dad and I have worked out a schedule so we can all get a break. Its our long weekend here in Canada (July 1 is Canada Day) and I was invited to a barbeque with friends and for sure come heck or high water I am going...I need a break away from all this. Already told my sister and dad that I'll take the early shift tomorrow and Saturday if they leave me alone tomorrow night.
I know, at my cost, that you need to have some "me time" so you go and enjoy your BBQ. The crap will still be there waiting for you, even if you leave it for a while. It's a bit like housework, never really goes away. Have a good time, and relax a little xxxx
