Seems to me that you have been doing the feeling for BOTH you and your husband for many years.  It's his turn to do that now.  You need a break. 

Your mind and heart are just taking a rest.  This is a good thing, I think. 

Jean

Ditto to what Jean said. After the emotional turmoil of the last 2 yrs I too think its you telling yourself "time for a rest".

Don't be surprised if this scares the shit out of him Carol. Afterall you've been doing all the work and now that he's coming around its you who isn't so sure. Another reason for him to read so he knows its quite common.

You'll come out of it when you are rested and ready. In the meantime enjoy the break. You deserve it.

Regards,

Tex

P.S. Glad to hear your little guy is doing AOK.

Just take care of yourself Carol.He has to deal with the mess that he created!

Today I told H that I need him to tell me the story of the A, like he told the C.  He asked me if I was sure I wanted to hear it.  I told him that I needed to hear it but I am not sure if I am ready to hear it. Maybe it is better to hear it while I am still numb instead of later when my feelings catch up to me...that could be so much worse. 

Thanks guys...Carol~

Carol, you know what the opposite of "love" is?

Indifference. (Where you don't care if someone falls off the earth tomorrow.)

Chris.

Hey Carol... How are things with you?

Monica

My yesterdays are all boxed up - and neatly put away.

Hello Monica,

Thanks for checking up on me.  I am doing OK.  Still not feeling much.  I must say that it is rather odd not feeling anything for H when for so long all I did was feel.  I guess I need a break and this is my mind & body's way of dealing.

Take Care...Carol~