I'm home from work today because in a couple of hours I am goig in for a breast biopsy. Something was seen on a routine mamogram. Went back for a second one and they also did an ultrasound. Since they still can't be sure what it is, I am going in for a biopsy today. I am scared about the procedure itself, and even more scared about the results. I should know Monday.
Husband and friends are being very supportive...but nobody knows EVERYTHING going through my head. My self-esteem was badly damaged by the affairs and still is. Could never help but compare myself to "Mrs. Perfect Breasts". I actually, horrible person that I am, wished something like this on her. Maybe this is my penance for those thoughts.
So here I sit and wait and wonder and if the worst case scenario comes to be, it will just cement in my head the feeling of being ugly that I have had for the past 3 1/2 years.
Could use some prayers.
This message has been edited by nobodys.fool on Mar 19, 2009 9:56 AM
Thanks. I'm trying to keep my mind busy so it doesn't go there but of course it does anyway. When I went in for the biopsy they said it would probably be Tuesday that I would hear, so I have an added day to wonder and wait. The good news is the biopsy itself was not as bad as I had envisioned it would be, especially since I turned down the sedative.
Don't know if you remember me, but we were going to talk on the phone along time ago but never got the chance.
I just want you to know i am thinking about you , i hope everything turns out great!
I remember you because we seemed so much alike in our lifes.
I understand how you would wish this on the OW because i wished worse than that on the OW in my life.
Keep in touch and let us know how things are with you.If you ever want to talk let me know.
Prayers are with you!!!
I'm sorry to hear this and hope the results will be negative; please let us know. One of my best friends from this area had breast cancer and she has been in remission for many years now. She had mastectomy's (In both I believe) and she is absolutely beautiful. I only say that to tell you that although it is probably very scary and painful now, it doesn't necessarily mean you will be less attractive because of it. Hang in there and I'll say a few prayers for you that your results come back with good news.
Well, I received good news and not so good news. The good news is that the biopsy did not show cancer, thank God. However, the word for the day seemed to be "hyperplasia." The breast showed a thickening of tissue/cells (hperplasia) which although not cancerous now, could possibly develop into something down the line. It was suggested I contact a surgeon who will most likely want to remove it. I also have hyperplasia in the lining of my uterus. This was discovered after a recent ultrasound I had done due to some problems I was having. My doctor said I will need to have a D.& C. and that the surgeon may be able to do both procedures at the same time so that I will only have to go under anesthesia once. I called the surgeon today but no-one was in the office so I will try again on Monday.
I have never had surgery before so I'm a little, OK, a lot freaked out. I am trying to look at the positive side of all this but it is really hard. Thanks for being here for me to let this out.
There is definitely a positive side to this; anything caught "early on" is much better than being caught later. Hang in there and I'm very happy you got some good news.
I've been thinking about you and wondering how things turned out. I was relieved to see your post tonight. I agree with Charlie. I know this is scary but it really is good news. Take care.
I had the surgery yesterday and all went well. There was one point while waiting to go into surgery that I wanted to pull out the IV, hop off and go home, I was that scared. Obviously, I didn't. It all went well. One surgeon did the lumpectomy and another did the D&C. I was given a RX for pain med to take as needed but I have had absolutely no pain at all. I'll get the results of everything next week. Thanks for the comforting thoughts and prayers. Angela
Amusing side-note: Ever wish your kids could walk in your shoes for a day so they can see why you are tired at night? My son, recent college grad, has not been able to find a job. He decided to get a substitute teaching certificate as something to do while looking, although his major was not education. Anyway, his first substituting job--taking over my third grade class for three days! Apparently several of the girls have a little crush on him. Can't wait to hear how today goes.
Edited to add side-note.
This message has been edited by nobodys.fool on Apr 30, 2009 9:49 AM
I am glad you are healing that all that is behind you!
Your son -- ha ha. That's funny. My daughter is in the third grade now, so I can just imagine all the giggling he probably put up with from those little ones "in love" with him. So sweet. I thought about substitute teaching for awhile, but I think I would strangle half of the class....
