This message has been edited by JamesBExperience on Nov 15, 2006 10:17 PM This message has been edited by JamesBExperience on Oct 4, 2006 12:26 AM This message has been edited by JamesBExperience on Oct 1, 2006 1:57 AM
I haven't been on here for a few days.Sorry to hear that there is another man.Just hang in there James & work on healing yourself.Focus on kicking the drugs & keeping your job.I know it isn't easy.I've had a bad week too but am trying to think positive. I had 2 daughters leave this week.My one daughter is almost 20 & it was shock when she moved out Sunday.We are very close & now my girl is moved out.I feel like I lost a big part of myself & I miss her alot.She had planned on staying here at home while she went to college for the next 4 years or so but she met a guy 6 weeks ago & she moved out.She came to see me today & we both cried.But on a positive note,we love each other & she is going to spend Thanksgiving & Christmas here at home. She even said she'd spend the night before Thanksgivisng & Christmas Eve.Then 2 days later I had to kick out my almost 18 year old because I found out she's using drugs & I won't tolerate that & I was tired of her calling me names in my home everytime she got mad about something.Anyway. I had both of my older kids move out this week & I feel like I lost half of me.Yet, I can't give up. I have to be mom to my 10 & 11 year olds & I still have a marriage to try & work on.So, focus on being strong enough so that you can be the best person that you can be.You need to kick the drugs & yes, you can do it even without Donna.Afterall, it is the strength from within you that will overcome the drug habit NOT Donna.Yes, it would have been nice to have her by your side for support but you can still overcome this.Also, focus on your job & what it means to you.You are worth the effort James.Hang in there & post on here as much as you need to.You're not alone even though it must feel that way.
Sounds like you're feeling a little bit better.That's good that you are connecting with friends.I don't have any, so have dealt with all of this alone.Not much fun! I just keep trying to cheer myself up & tell myself that I don't have much choice but to deal with what is thrown at me.It's been hard to have my 2 oldest daughters leave but I have to deal with it.Last nite I even tried to cheer myself up by telling myself that the bathroom was staying cleaner & that I would have to buy less shampoo,etc.LOL!Didn't help much but I at least made myself smile for a second or two!
You hang in there!I believe that good things have to be ahead!Afterall, we are running out of things that can go wrong!LOL!!!!
This must be a tough day for you.I guess as time goes by you will be able to look at it as a new beginning;maybe not one that you would have personally chosen BUT a new beginning just the same.It can still be full of possibilities-time for old & new hobbies,old & new friends,etc.How often will you get to see your children?Take care of yourself & be gentle with yourself.I don't know about you but I have always had a problem with change.I'm not good at it!Glad that you continue to post!We're here for you!
