sometimes i feel the greatest empathy, sympathy, and compassion for anissa, and sometimes i feel such anger and sadness when i think about anissa.
i simply don't know to what extent anissa was innocent or guilty of her fate. i wish i knew someone who did. she could have stayed with her drug-free friends but didn't, and when those friends tried to contact her and help her, she shut the door on them. personally, i believe her brother paul was the anchor she coudn't escape. one drug for him, one drug for me; one drug for me, one drug for paul. woudn't have it any other way. paul is the only complete love i know.
if anissa had survived her drug overdose she most certainly would have been facing time in prison. who doubts for a second that frank henessy woudn't have contacted every friend he had to prosecute anissa to the fullest extent of the law? anissa would have faced 6 months to a year in prison, would she have come out stronger or weaker? would her resilience have been diminished or made stronger? and who would be there to wait for her once she came out of prison? her brother paul, paul was the one strongest emotional tie for anissa, and paul, from everything i've read was, an addict to the bone. paul would have dragged anissa down with him, after anissa got out of prison.
i sometimes like to think that anissa had a chance to survive when i'm sentimental. when i think clearly, i think anissa never had a chance. she was doomed from the first drag on a marijuane cigarette given to her by paul. everyone blames paula, but no one thinks of her brother paul's much greater influence on her. personally, i think take away paul and his inherited, incurable addiction, and anissa's undying love for him, and anissa would have had a chance.
you can fight an enemy you hate, how do you resist an enemy you adore.
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