Did I rid myself of my stupidity? Maybe a facet of it, but really, no... I simply understand it better.
It was expensive, there is no doubt. Debts I've incurred that I cannot pay back. Whether it was "worth it" remains to be seen.
It isn't possible to describe the whys, whats, and wherefors. But from what I can tell, I've done the right thing. I regret the damage incurred along the way. Apologies seem dubious and trivial in this case, so I openly accept the consequences.