Thanks Deb for the words of encouragement. It was unexpected.
I wasn't in danger of losing it really. My reply to Jack was not going to be in kind, but to simply remind him that he is taking the Lord's name in vain in his rebuke of Satan .. and that it was just a wee bit of hyperbole. Seriously, some posts on forums are evil? Get out a little more .. there are truly evil things going on in the World. Forum postings don't usually meet the criteria. A little perspective, a little proportion, a little common sense.
I took the boys for a walk, their 4th of the day. It was a big day, usually they get 3, but they seemed a bit restless in the afternoon so I took them out for an extra one. That way I get to do some stuff while they recuperate. A 70 minute Yin Yoga .. a sweet pain. It's hard, but not active. You just get into your pose and hold it for 3 or 4 or 5 minutes. It's a moaning kind of practice.
It does mean a great deal that you would praise pacifism. In me or anyone. Walking away isn't our first instinct. I have learned it is the only way to truly not lose. No one wins .. either way. I've been there though and seen others, and eventually the person defending themselves is on the same level as the one attacking .. and at some point the two become one in their hatred.
I feel good today, and don't have any remorse over my actions yesterday. That speaks something to me.