My beloved Annie, my partner, has died suddenly and unexpectedly.I never realised how much I loved her until that happened.The pain is so great that I don't know how to support it.I try to think of what she would want me to do but that just reinforces the terible sense of loss and of guilt too.Could I have done more?Why didn't we have more time togethe?We had only 6 years.She was blonde and petite with a big, caring heart.She loved her family and was fiercely loyal.She is irreplaceable.My heart goes out to all out there who are suffering bereavement

Paul

I lost my husband suddenly too. Last year he was enjoying a motorbike rally with family and friends and for no apparent reason went off the road and into a tree. They weren't speeding and it was unexplainable! It was 10 months ago now. At first family and friends were a great support to us, but as time has gone on I feel so lonely sometimes. I miss my husband as he was my best friend too! I initially went back to work but found it was all too much so I haven't been working. I have bought a horse and a dog which keeps me busy most of the time, but I would like to get a little job to begin socialising again, so I don't know where to start!! The whole world keeps moving on and I feel a bit left behind sometimes! Time does indeed heal, but you never stop thinking about your loved one and missing them every day! I find the hardest thing is making decisions on my own, let alone coping with general house and financial things. I also find it hard to commit to things and rather do things on impulse! I don't know how long ago you lost Annie, but time will heal, even if it doesn't feel like it will at first! I was with Daren for 17 years since I was about 19, so it was a real shock! It is good to put my feelings down as I tend to keep them in now as people expect you to move on and don't understand the turmoil you still have inside! Do you have any children? It is hardest on them and I feel guilty that mine don't have a dad now, even though one has started work now! Theresa