Hi all
We were all looking forward to xmas this year, i had my mum and my grandparents coming to join my husband, daughter and myself for christmas day. On christmas eve i had a call from my grand father asking me to come round as my nan had fallen in the bathroom.When we arrived the paramedics were there and said she had suffered a stroke they took her to hospital. She was transfered to a ward and we arrived home about 1.30 in the morning. On christmas morning i had to keep things as normal as possible for my 3 year old daughter which was very difficult and when she went to bed in the evening i went back to the hospital and stayed all night by my nans bedside, i begged her to wake up, even told her that i was smoking again and i promised her i'd stop if she woke up - she never regained conciousness and died on New Years Day. I am very close to my grandparents and it is destroying me seeing my grandad suffer - they were married for 56 years. In the chapel of rest i had to listen to my grandad begging my nan to come and get him too, not to leave him behind etc - its ripped my heart out. I don't think i am coping with my own grief too well although i am receiving great support from my husband. The pain inside is incredible,i feel so empty and numb
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