6 weeks after my wonderful wife died my sense of grief, loss and lonliness just seem to get worse. I just feel such a sense of shock, disorientation and anxiety. I feel as if part of me has gone and I just don't feel whole any more. I almost seem to have lost part of my identity. My wife was my best friend, lover, soul mate. We were one in many ways and now I just feel at such a loss and so empty and lonely. I have returned to work but it seems so pointless along with most other things. The phone's stopped ringing, friends and some family have just stopped making contact or calling round. Some I've not seen since she died despite them all saying they were there for me if there was anything they could do. There's nothing specific but it is just comforting to have some contact. Not only have I lost the dearest person in the world but our whole shared, planned future has gone. I scattered her ashes on Friday - it was such a heartbreaking ordeal. The pain is just so intense.

Your message touched my heart. I felt the same too it is a long old road to healing it shows how much you loved her.
Keep going thats all we can do, think of the good times and try and be strong, we are all thinking of you and all feel the same.
Life goes on it is very hard for us left behind, but our loved ones will want us to keep going and talk about them often, the pain lifts a little with time but the love is there always. take care it is still very early days for you it is right to grieve and will heal you gradually.

Heather

I feel sorry for you at the loss of your darling wife, it is still very soon,feel free to cry as often as you want, crying releases toxins, and helps the healing process.Being back at work will help to keep your mind occupied. I know everyone will probably have told you that time heals, but it is true, it has been 2 years now since my husband was killed in a traffic accident and now I do not cry every day, and the pain is becoming less, That awful feeling in your gut gets less, I still have grief bursts, and I have to be careful what I watch on tv, I still canīt listen to music, but I found myself singing the other day, the first time in 2 yrs.