1. Hi everyone
Thank you all for your thought and kindness. It's hard to explain or understand but it does somehow help to connect to people who are going through similar experiences. I find myself visiting my wife's ashes virtually every day. There is less and less there each day but I just feel drawn there to try to get as close to her as possible. Being in the house is so difficult. I want to be here, to be surrounded by her things and our memories but i just miss her so much and get so angry for her that she had so much to live for and deserved better than to die from cancer at only 52. Everything just seems so pointless. I try to be strong for our 2 children, now aged 22 and 18. I know they need my strength but it is so so hard
take care..............Pneylan


pneylan

Hi
Your situation is so similar to mine except I have lost my husband at 49 years to cancer. My children are the same age and I feel life is so pointless. You just keep thinking of them and each day you cannot believe this has happened to you.
I call his name most days then it hits you. Lets all draw strength from one another we have to keep going thats what they would want they will always be in our hearts and one day we all be together again.
Thinking of you all take care of your loved ones.

Hi I just wanted to add after reading. I lost my partner to cancer 12wks this thursday. They were only 34.It is truely awful to lose a partner. they are the ones we shared all our lives with. My parner is now burries overseas. I can only go once a month. how can this of happened at 34.