my mum died and i just dont know wot to do..... i miss her so much it hurts so bad.
so much
so much it hurts so much.
i want her to be here, i need her to be here, wot do i do on my own
i'm so lone
i have now one to truly turn to
wot do i do?
i have no one and i dont know how each day passes, it jst does
i'm sad
if i dont think of her every second i feel like i let her down like i'm forgetting
i cant let that happen, i cant i just cant
wot wot wot
i cant stop cying, i have too coz i cant breath its like i'm suffercating. i'm gonna die i'm gonna cry so much i cany see how to stop?
my heads a blur and everythings spinning.
i feel sick, it hurt so much.
i'm just so sorry, so, so sorry

Hello, first of all I am very sorry for your loss. The way you are feeling and the amount of loss you are feeling is normal, its all part of grief which is what happens when you loose someone you love with all your heart.
You say you have no one to talk too, what about a GP or grief counsellor. I know that they cannot make your mum come back but huni they are there to support you through this. Your mom wont want you to be going through all this pain. The way you feel when you cry - the suffocating feeling is all the pressure your feeling and the panic of the reality. I really think it will help you to talk to someone huni, no one should have to go through this alone and I know you cant see it now BUT there is a way out of this, there is a time which will come when you wont feel as bad, you will ALWAYS remember your mum and the special memories will never fade but huni the pain will ease. This can take a while and its important in that time that we seek help.
Alwaysw here if you want to talk
Love Jo xx