hi,

My brother committed suicide in March and i don't understand why. There I said it. My Parents don't want anyone to know that he took his own life. But I need to tell someone so I am.

I miss him even though we always had different interests. I wanted him to teach my son how to be a man as my son's dad isn't involved. My brother was so very clever and I needed him to teach my son things. And now my son won't even remember his uncle because he is only 2.

I miss him so much. I feel guilty for enjoying myself sometimes and then cry when I get home.

Thanks for listening

x

You have been brave to tell us about this traumatic experience. I thnik this is the first step in getting to grips with it, and taking control. It must be a dreadful thing to cope with, but now you have started you will find the next steps easier. I honestly believe, as I have said so often on here, that sharing pain and grief is the best way. On here nobody discloses your secrets, so you are safe to go on talking about it as much as you want. I often cry as I am typing my messages, although I am now feeling stronger, because time does heal...but it takes a long time. Please remember that you have caring friends here, even if you don't know who they are. Strangers can be your best friends at a time like this.
Keep on keeping, and thanks for sharing this with us. #Love,
Derry

Sarah,
Please accept my sincere condolences on the loss of your brother.
I've found this site really helpful in trying to cope with the loss of my mother as the people on here are so caring and we are in all similar situations, one way or another. Also, as it's anonymous it's sometimes easier to write down things that you aren't able to share with people on the "outside" world.
Best wishes,
Louise x

I just wanted to say thank you for your kind words and that reading other messages has helped.

I do feel like I can't tell anyone how I am feeling as they have all seemed to have moved on and are dealing with it very well. I know I have to stay strong for my son's sake. The only time I cry now is when I am on my own after everyone has gone to bed.

Thanks