Well, I'm back, and, yes, I did miss you guys and thought of you often. Nice relaxing holiday, think mum enjoyed herself but obviously hard without my dad, first holiday 'alone' etc. Weather was good (apart from one day, rained all bloody day) and kids had a great time, and although I did enjoy the break, it has to be said that I felt my dad's loss much harder than normal. I put this down to the fact that on holiday there's not the usual stresses and worry of work, taxi-ing the kids from A to B, shopping, etc, etc, just an open mind - I played the songs from my dad's funeral over and over on my ipod and constantly pictured him wandering out the hotel to join us at the pool/playing with the kids in the sea....(((((if only)))))

From reading back on the posts over the last few days, seems like I'm not the only one having a bit of a hard time right now - just so so hard to think I'll never see him again...can't accept it, just can't - the reason this site is so good for us all - we all share the same feelings.

Hugs to all of you....


JW x x x

Glad ya had a good holiday, but understand how hard it is too. Never though i'd use a site like this, i'm too much of a keep it all inside type of person. but i've said more on here to all of you than i have to my closest friends.
Thanks xxx

Hi JW, welcome back we have missed you too. Good for you going on holiday and I am glad that you managed to enjoy it even though it was hard without your dad.....you did it, that's the main thing, another hurdle past, everything has to be done once without him before it can get easier....well done all to you.

Take care,
love Lynn. xxx