Hi Everyone,
I hope you all have found some kind of peace today.
Yesterday and today have been really bad for me. I've been so down.
I had a hospital appointment today and had blood tests in the same room that I sat with my mum whilst she had hers, before we knew how ill she was to become. I cried all the way back to my car and couldn't stop. I had to sort out paperwork for the third solicitor I will be seeing tomorrow and really thought I couldn't take anymore when a record that was special to me because my mum loved this particular band came on the radio and although it may have been a coincidence, I like to think that she was there with me. I know that she would have hated to see me so upset and would have been so upset herself to have seen me like that.
Love to you all and try and keep strong.
Louise x

Sorry to hear you've had a bad day - we all get them, only consolation is when we get some good moments in between. I was so interested to read of the music on the radio - and I must share this with you - I was sitting on the sofa today and couldn't see the picture of my dad which is on the hearth, due to the kids stuff piled up in front of it - as I said to myself, 'I can't see you dad, but I know you are there' - a tea tree light holder which is on our TV fell off (this is only the second time ever it's done that) - there are two light holders on the tv which our daughter made - one with mum on it and one with 'dad' - of course it was the dad one which fell to the floor - it was face up but I didn't need to look, I knew it was the 'dad' one. You can be a sceptic or you can be a believer and read what you will into the little 'signs' that surround us each and every day...for me, for now at least...I'm a believer for sure.

Good luck with your new solicitors tomorrow, it's a long drawn out and tiresome business - but I hope you make some headway tomorrow.

JW x x

PS: Have to ask....re the music - what was your mum's favourite band?

Hi JW and everyone on here.
Have had an awful night - it's only 4.30 am now! Took 2 sleeping pills before I went to bed but have been awake since around 3.30. My mind is so active that I'm unable to relax day or night. Just had a slightly incoherent dream about my mum and what I remember of it was unpleasant as she nearly died in it but didn't but then later on I think she may have.
I know I'm going to be so tired later and probably won't be able to think straight (again!)
JW., The band my mum loved was Guns n Roses! She was a very young type of woman and loved coming to comedy clubs with me and seeing live bands. She also socialised with me and my friends quite a bit. People who knew her said that she was my friend as well as my mum.
My daughter is going to Abu Dhabi this morning and that should do her the world of good as she has been so distressed about my mum as she was very close to her.
Hope you have all slept better than me!
Love to you all.
Louise x

Lynn, hope you are feeling a touch stronger today - you are such an 'inspiration' to this board.

Listen, don't beat yourself up over dreaming or not dreaming. The medium I saw (and I have read this also) said there are many ways our loved ones can give us a sign - as I said in my post to Louise, we can believe or not believe, the choice is ours, yes, maybe I'm kidding myself, but if it's a comfort to me/us...then that can't be a bad thing can it....all you need to do is look around, the signs are there....it's just learning to spot them - I really do believe that, and reading some of the messages here over the last fews days only underlines that.

Hugs to you

(((JW)))

Lynn, hope you are feeling a touch stronger today - you are such an 'inspiration' to this board.

Listen, don't beat yourself up over dreaming or not dreaming. The medium I saw (and I have read this also) said there are many ways our loved ones can give us a sign - as I said in my post to Louise, we can believe or not believe, the choice is ours, yes, maybe I'm kidding myself, but if it's a comfort to me/us...then that can't be a bad thing can it....all you need to do is look around, the signs are there....it's just learning to spot them - I really do believe that, and reading some of the messages here over the last fews days only underlines that.

Hugs to you

(((JW)))