Hi John,
Yes it is extremely difficult at this time of year, my family are my rock but sometimes u just do not reveal ur true feelings to them because u know they are sad and hurting too, i find it hard to adjust to the singleness of it all, cooking for just one is a nightmare fore me, sometimes i dont bother at all and tend to just make up a sandwich instead, i do at the moment take each day as it comes, its all u can do, when i feel low and weepy, i look for things to do in the house because i really am quite a strong character usually, am planning to decorate the lounge and i just know that this will be a hard task for me because we always chose things together and it will be sad to see it all go, i hope i am doing the right thing by replacing the furniture too. I started taking driving lessons not long after Bill passed away but i think it was too soon, i did the theory test first of all which i passed 100% which amazed me considering i was practically forced into it by our son who was sitting his at the same time, he was right to do it because it gave me the greatest confidence to start driving lessons. I had a rather good instructor of the same age group as myself whom i got on well with but he left BSM and his replacement made me a nervouse wreck so i gave up but now i want to get back into it because its something to aim for, i miss going here there and everywhere in the car and know its important that i carry this through. I know i am at the very early stages of this journey and there is a long way to go. Yes, i believe Derry too is right in what he says, time is a great healer, i can still remember the pain of losing my father at the age of 10 years and can still see his face in my minds eye to this day, it took a long time for the pain to go but i always seemed to feel his presence around me in my teenage days very strongly. I am glad u are having brighter days and coping better with ur loss and thank u so much for the words of comfort.
Best wishes,
Valerie
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