Most of you who read my messages know that I reallyb lost all vestiges of orthodox religious faith in the years after our son died in 1996. That is why I find all the messages on the media about resurrection a bit depressing. Other people have faith and I say good luck to them in their beliefs.
However, although today is not the anniversary of Pat's death, which was April 8th, it is in some ways a reminder as she died on Easter Sunday morning last year. Strangely enough, although I am not a great believer in anniversaries or special events, as the first year of my bereavement reaches its crisis, I have a feeling that Pat has also been travelling, and she is almost at her destination. Perhaps she is going on a similar journey through as that way I have passed along. I am feelin a lot more accepting of the situation, and in some ways I feel she is now closer to me than she has been during the year. Perhaps we have arrived at the same point in space as when we parted.
Just before she died she became very peaceful and accepting, as she saw that the pain was coming to an end. I think she could see where she was going, which was certainly heaven, as she always made heaven wherever she was.
Now, although I am crying as I type this, I feel a great hope that we will meet again, not in a bodily form, but in a spiritual way. That is how we love each other, and I feel that we are not permanently parted. Maybe I am fooling myself, but I do feel a great hope that things will work out for the best.
i would love to hear from others who have reached or passed anniversaries, but what ever I hear, I am sure that we will all reach that mutual destination where we can be with our love ones in a perfect situation..call it Heaven!
I can still say God bless you all, and mean it!
Love Derry

I've just watched Titanic - now i'm a blubbering wreck.
I love the end of it - it reminded me of your message. When the old lady dies at the end, warm in her bed, she's then back on the Titanic were all those that were lost were waiting for her. She was reunited with her love and a time she'd never forgotten.
I hope I get that chance, when ever that maybe, that my mum and grandpa are waiting for me, that i'll see them again one day.
I miss them so much, as we all do.