My wife passed away, hurts to say died,11 days ago we had been together since school a total of 27 years. Debbies dad died last August and she was so distraught that she slowly declined following his death. I hurt so much not just because I miss her so much and dont see any future without her but also for not supporting her in her grief enough, not forcing her to a doctors in time and not being able to forgive her family for not supporting her enough.
I have loads of friends/family that have offered support but I cannot bring myself to release to them, instead I do what Debbie did and smother my emotions with alcohol.
I know in my heart that I am not the only one going through this but the thought of feeling like this for months even years is overwhelming. found some good sites on line one of which is www.myspouseisdead.com but just get confused and revert to either bottling it up or self destructing.
My thoughts go out to all those in pain
Boris
Scoring disabled. You must be logged in to score posts.
Dear Boris,
I know how difficult this time is. I am approaching the 1st anniversary of my husband's death and I feel as though I'm back there at the beginning again. The pain is so intense that all I want to do is die, but it does get easier, I know for a while I felt better. You do need to share your pain with others, they all want to help. Think of me over the next week. I'm now at the beginning of the end.
I will keep you in my thoughts,
Mary.
Scoring disabled. You must be logged in to score posts.